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The Bloom Room #006: Investing in Yourself ππ½
Recorded: Feb. 9, 2026 Duration: 4:13:37Space Recording
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In a vibrant discussion, crypto enthusiasts explored the significance of partnerships, emerging trends, and personal growth within the crypto space. Participants emphasized the importance of strategic collaborations and fundraising efforts to drive innovation and yield opportunities, highlighting the dynamic nature of the industry.
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Thank you. The End Thank you. Music Thank you. all right i'm just jamming getting the space sent out to people
feel free to repost the room if you'd like to. That would be awesome. Hi Bridget.
Hi Mary. Hi, Bridget. How are you? Welcome in.
Hello.
I was so happy. I was like, she's playing piano. And for a minute before Mary came in,
I was like, it's a concert for me. And Mary came in and I'm like, oh, we get to share it.
That's funny. How's your day?
How's your day been?
It has been eventful.
We finally took down the Christmas tree.
Nice.
I think Nana would have kept it all year.
And she was gone.
So I was like, I'm putting it away.
It's funny because we didn't put it up until like the week of Christmas because I was so busy.
And then she's just been really enjoying having the lights on at night.
She's so cute.
So I didn't put it up because I was like, okay, she's loving it.
She turns 90 on Wednesday.
Aww.
And man, is she like the Energizer bunny.
She's been going nonstop for like three weeks
oh my goodness that's awesome that means that she's uh she's still got it you know
yeah she gets tired right but I mean part of what's been happening is she's been going to
funerals and that's been really hard on her heart and a lot of the people that she knows are leaving
right so yeah it's been it's been interesting know, just trying to support her and love her through what feels like emotional.
It's traumatic for her emotionally when people she's known for, you know, 50, 60 years leave, you know, and transition from this layer of physicality into what is next for them.
So, yeah.
But I just love her, and I'm so grateful I get this time with her.
She raised me, right?
So she wasβI credit her and Grandpa, who's no longer in the physical.
I credit them for me being as open as I am and never going back to sleep.
Because they were very, like, I didn't know until I was almost eight that everybody else wasn't like me.
And so, yeah, it's been lovely getting this time with her.
It's like, I got her in the middle of her life in the end, you know, but it's the beginning of my life in the middle of mine.
It's very cool.
Wow.
Yeah, it's interesting to think about that, you know, like certain age groups go through different seasons of life, right?
So like I'm in the season of life where people I know are getting married and having babies and you know that kind of stuff
right and then as you get older and I'm seeing this start to happen with some of my parents
friends like people are you know getting sick and passing away and stuff and and that's becoming
like a season of their life going to funerals and stuff has been more frequent as my parents get
older and as as you know people in my life get older too it's interesting um interesting times
because you take a step back and you're like oh my gosh we're in like completely different parts
of our life right now but both are very significant. So it's interesting.
Yeah. Mary's here. Oh my goodness. Hi, Mary. Welcome in. How are you today?
I'm good. You know, I have a lot of compassion for the seasons of life topic because I've kind of been broaching on all those things. Like I have family who is just having babies. And then I have my dad who is like, you know, he's in his eighties.
So it's just, it's interesting to hear, you know, where other people are with it. And you're so lucky, Bridget, that you do get to
spend that time with her because kind of when our elders become like, you know, old, they're like
children again. And it's a very precious time to be able to take care of them. So, you know,
I'm glad to hear that you're enjoying it. And I hope that you continue to have as many years possible with her because I had a family
member who lived to be 104 and she saw all of her children die, her family, her friends.
And at the end, she was just like, did God forget me?
But actually, she was meant to she was meant to live that long.
And if it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have ever gone and seen a part of the country that my family is from.
And it's just a really beautiful journey.
It's just as beautiful as the beginning at the end.
So that's really precious.
I'm glad you shared that.
Oh, Mary.
Thank you for sharing what you did.
Yeah, she has a memory
that is better than most people I know. So I'm blessed with that. There are little moments here
and there, but I feel like I have more of those than she does, you know. She can tell you everything
about anyone in the family, the people I have never met, right?
And people that I've met.
Yeah, she's still veryβshe does everything on her own.
She's very independent.
If I notice anything with her, she's gotten sassier and feistier.
But she's very, very sweet and loving, too, though.
So I definitely see where I get that feistiness that I don't show that often anymore.
I did when I was younger, for sure.
But yeah, if you try to do too much for her, she's like, I am not.
She gets real frustrated.
So I'm just like, Nana, can I help you with that?
Okay, good.
We're good.
You know, sometimes she says yes, sometimes she says no.
But if you press her too much, like try to baby her, she gets real feisty.
I'm like, mom, don't do that.
Mom, mom, don't.
Oh, she's going to get an earful.
You know, it's one of those.
She's like, I am not an invalid. my gosh that's so funny and i love how um it's like my favorite
thing about people that are you know elderly people seniors they're so like up front and
forward and they don't beat around the bush they're not like i don't know at least in my
experience it seems like they're just at that point in life where they don't give a fuck.
They're going to say whatever is on their mind to whoever.
You could be out at the restaurant or grocery store or whatever.
Someone, like, cuts them off with their cart and they're like, excuse me.
It's like, I don't know.
It's the stuff that we're all thinking but we don't say out loud that they say.
And that's Mary's right.
Like, they kind of revert back to how we were when we were kids, when we didn't really, like, you know, we didn't know no better.
We just said what was on our mind.
And I love that.
It's endearing to me because I think that we live in such a like polished version
of reality for the rest of our lives
when we're kids and we're elderly we get to be
like just you know up front
and not give a fuck but like
otherwise we all
kind of adhere to some social
cues and you know
read the room type stuff
so which is you know it serves its
purpose it's just so
funny to me. I love it. I don't know. Let them be, let the, and also like, you know, they're set in
their ways. Sometimes there's, there's like little things that they're going to be particular about
and you could get upset with them and you could be like, Oh my God, that's so annoying. Why do,
why do they have to be particular about that?
But it's like, dude, if you were doing this for like 90 years of your life,
I'm pretty sure if someone tried to change it up on you and like switch it up a little bit,
you'd be like, excuse me.
No, I've been doing this for 90 years.
Step off.
So I get it.
It's funny to me.
But welcome to the bloom room. We were just kind of like chatting right now trying to get things started. I'm sending out the space to friends. There's a
bunch of cool spaces happening right now. So we'll see. We'll see what happens here as usual. I don't
care how many people are here or not here it
doesn't matter to me I still want to have the conversation um because I think this stuff is
important and uh today we are going to hopefully chat a little bit about like investing in yourself
as a you know whether you're a creative in the form of being a musician or an artist, or
maybe you're a video game creator or, um, um, someone that hypnotizes people for a living,
literally, uh, which is so cool. Uh, maybe, um, maybe you have like this new goal of,
you know, getting super fit and, and taking care of your body this year, whatever it may be,
whatever the goal is, usually comes with some crossroads where you're like, ooh, do I buy this
thing that I think I need to push me further along in my journey? And yeah, sometimes we have to
invest in ourselves to get to a better place and to reach
whatever our goals are. And sometimes it's really, really hard to do that because especially in times
like these where the economy is not exactly, you know, peaches, rainbows, and butterflies,
uh, we have to make our decisions wisely. You know, we gotta, we have, I don't know, what's the saying?
Don't put all your eggs in one basket. Well, you better, you better put your eggs in a good basket.
That's also what the saying should be, you know? If you're gonna put eggs into a basket,
make sure that basket is worth your time. So yeah, we'll talk a little bit about investing in yourself today.
But for now, if anybody wants to repost the space, send it out in the DMs.
That would be lovely.
I see Rue is here.
We got Essen.
We got Hawk.
And we got You Are Loved, I Am Loved.
got you are loved I am loved that's a beautiful name love it um but yeah Bridget maybe do you
That's a beautiful name.
Love it.
have any like insight to share on this topic um I have some like talking points that I can get to
later but I'm curious if anything pops into your mind on um investing in yourself as an independent
like creative and entrepreneur oh my gosh I feel like like my focus for the last three years has really been on a
life-work balance. Everybody always says work-life, but for me, I love what I do so much that it's my
passion and I can get, I have a tendency to, there's a bit of a workaholic in me with my Berger Moon. And so I can tend to get like
super immersed and not remember to come up for air, right? So I've been the last three years,
especially, really focused on, you know, I'm not working to live, I'm living to work. Or did I say that backwards? I don't know,
I always get that one wrong. But I want to, I love what I do. And I pay close attention
these days, especially after being so sick this last year, to, you know, am I getting enough rest?
Am I giving myself the things that feel really decadent, right? Am I spending enough time on the things
that fill my cup up outside of my business? Because it fills my cup up, but it's also a lot
of energy, right? So for me personally, I just, I do my best to pay attention to my needs. And I
think, you know, as a starseed, there's a thing in me, and I make jokes about this, but it's so true. And I even had a moment like that today where I'm like, didn't we just
eat? I swear to God, we just did this. It feels like it was just like an hour ago, right? And
it's like four hours later. And my husband, like his, his, Ajax says he's on his way in 10,
by the way. His, his family, like they plan their plan their lunch and dinner at breakfast, right?
So he's, like, the opposite of me.
He's, like, baby, we need to eat.
Baby, we need to eat.
Baby, it's time to eat.
And so, like, I work through stuff like that, right?
Where I'm, like, because I love food at the same time, but I get sick of it.
I don't know how to describe it.
I'm, like, I would rather do rather do like a million other things, right?
So it's about remembering, you know, to tend to my physical needs as well, because I spend
so much time, you know, connecting in more spiritual ways.
And really just, we started walking where we can see the Milky Way from where we are, right? At night,
when it's a clear sky, we can see the shape of the Milky Way in the sky. So I like to walk down
the street and back, like up and down. So just doing little things that like, and focusing on
resetting, you know, my nervous system when something pulls me out of balance or out of alignment or something.
I've had a lot of intensity in my world the last three years, right?
So just little things like that.
And I do spend a lot of time investing in my consciousness expansion as well, because
I feel like with what I do, and I feel like this is for anybody, like there's, there's
such, you can create such congruency, right?
When we focus on the spiritual and really grounding and anchoring into the body, anchoring
into ourselves, you know, remembering that our body is filled with living, other living beings that help
create the human experience for us and, you know, keeping everybody happy, that kind of thing,
right? That's how I talk about the biomes. Got to keep all the little consciousnesses that are in me,
you know, working with me, helping to create this human experience, keep them happy and healthy,
you know.
But I feel like for different people, it's going to look differently, right?
I do, my sense is that some sort of consciousness practice is really important for everyone
during this period that we're in now, because it's only going to get more intense if we're not
you know and um it's kind of about in my world it's like being the eye of the hurricane right
so that's what I would share Mella and hi Mr. Witch and hi Hawk I love you I love that um
And then hi, Hawk, I love you.
I love that.
Yeah, I'm glad that you brought up, you know, investing in yourself in a different way.
Like investing in, I guess, in the form of like time, right?
What are you spending your time doing?
doing and is because because I think that investment in yourself is often like invisible
and people you know celebrate the outcomes of all of those individual investments like
added up right and investment not not in just the form of money, like investment in the form of like time
spent. So, you know, me being a musician, it makes me think, you know, how much time have I spent
practicing? How much time have I spent studying my craft and the various ways that I can study the theory to make me a better musician.
You know, like maybe part of our investments is like learning how to say, like investment
of time is learning how to say no to certain things, like creating boundaries, setting
up what I like to call systems, but like I guess people often would refer to them as habits,
right? So your habits accumulated over time are going to equate to whatever outcome
happens for you. So that's how I think of it, not just in the form of like spending money on yourself and investing in your whatever
it is, but like also time spent is also an investment, right?
Because your time could always be spent on other things, right?
There's so many things that we can spend our time in or spend our time on.
So, you know, making those decisions consciously
rather than just like kind of floating along
is something that's helped me over time.
Like I'm a lot more, I guess there's a lot more intention
behind how I'm choosing to spend my time now
because I know what the outcome looks like if I don't
do that. I've done that before. We've been there. I know what it feels like and what it looks like
to not allocate my time and spend my resources according to what my goals are and aligning with
those goals. We've talked a lot about alignment and And I think this, this is true for that too, right? Like, are you investing in
yourself in a way that aligns? Or is this like a quick dopamine fix? Like in my, you know,
I've done that too. I've, I've definitely been the person that just, you know, maybe in a moment of extreme like
euphoria about whatever it is my goal is in that moment, I'm like, oh my god, I'm gonna,
I'm gonna go buy this because I need this in order to get to this better place. No, I need this. I
need this. I know I need this. And then I wake up a week later and I'm like, yeah, I probably didn't
need to buy that thing. I could have just done this other thing instead and I would have been okay.
It's hard to think of a good example.
I guess it could be anything but like gear or like online courses.
Like it could be like literally anything.
But yeah, learning how to differentiate, you know, what's worth your time and what's worth your resources
and what is not is very difficult.
And it takes, you know, it's a learning curve because you're going to end up making some
mistakes.
You're going to end up spending time and resources in places that you shouldn't have.
And you're going to learn that the hard way.
I don't think that anybody just kind of is 100% on top of it all the time.
Like we are, we're all going to make significant mistakes.
But in that we have to learn how to, I guess, self-assess and like accept when we've made a mistake and then be like okay well that was that was bad I
can't do that again we got to learn from our mistakes of course um but we have Hawk here
what's up Hawk how are you welcome to the space hi guys how are you happy Sunday or Monday or
wherever you are um yeah I'm so in agreement with everything you guys are talking about. I think like for me, I don't know, Bridget, I feel like something shifted right as this Aquarius is going into, I mean, Pluto is going into Aquarius or something with my sign and a bunch of four other Pisces.
And I can't remember.
Sorry, I'm so tired.
But like I literally just liquidated all
my assets and I'm like I'm reopening my business again and I don't give a fuck what's going on in
the world um so I've been just you know I lost everything in 2020 um and then I've been just
contemplating back and forth back and forth should I stay should I leave are we staying here are we
living here are we leaving like what's happening and I just look around and I'm just like, well, it really
doesn't matter. Everywhere is just things are happening everywhere. And, you know, I'm activating
from a vortex. I was told to come here. I was really actually told to go to Egypt, but things were pretty bad and are still pretty dodgy over there.
But yeah, I've been dreaming a lot. I started vision boarding again. I'm rebuilding my business
again and combining my businesses that I had in Los Angeles, which were restaurants, healing center,
and creating kind of a unique version of that now.
But I wanted to just kind of pick your brain. And there's this guy on TikTok. His name is Joe
something. I'll put his name down in the purple pill once I go and find him. But
I think he's like a really good astrologer. He kind of nails things. And I just really like his
voice and the way he just
kind of puts everything together very matter of fact and uh he's been pretty good and i've been
kind of cross-checking him with shelly my my own astrologer since i created my businesses eight
years ago um not the restaurants they were around 39 years but the healing center was eight years
ago and just activating into that space and holding space for humanity and all of the above.
But yeah, I would love to hear your thoughts.
I've been dreaming a lot and things are moving exponentially fast.
And I just pulled the plug.
I literally liquidated everything like four days ago and just been saving for like the last since, you know, getting looted
and all the things, but just been saving and saving and saving and getting to a place where I can,
you know, lease somewhere again. And I just really miss everyone in person. And even though I built
a virtual world out of my real IRL space and I've been waiting for two years to host events in my IRL space to really tell everybody to get the hell out of there, out of the VR space, out of the AR space and go back into the real world because I know the kids are going to be born into it. But the fact that I got my actual space built two years ago, thanks to Clubhouse, thanks to Charles, thanks to
all of our friends way back then where I was not into technology as much as I've been
now and kind of having my space forever live in that virtual space in exactly the way I curated it means the world to me,
you know? And perhaps in my IRL space that I'm in search of right now, I have two LOIs on a space
I really like and another, but just kind of perhaps taking that to the next level and then
filming and then broadcasting it there once we have utility and all the things we
had in 2020 and 2021 to actually you know see if when these kids are going to be actually born into
it because my job and our job in that space will be to make sure that they know this isn't the real
world they should be experiencing in totality the way that perhaps, you know, things will change in
the next five, 10 to 15 years rapidly. And so, yeah, I would love to hear your feedback or
anyone's feedback. And if you guys are also doing anything, and this, I think this is what it what he said was you know you have an Aries but if you are in
in like in alignment with everything that you have been working towards then everything's
effortlessly flowing in your direction and the doors are just gonna wide smack open for you and
you just there is no friction and when there's no friction, I know that that is
exactly what I'm supposed to do. But man, these two years just living in this vortex and healing
from all of the losses and everything I've gone through myself and all of us together,
it's pretty interesting, the timing of it all. But I feel stronger than ever before.
interesting the timing of it all, but I feel stronger than ever before. And I built a 3,000
square foot healing space in a matter of less than six months. I could literally do this one
with my eyes closed. So I'm excited and I have no fear and I have no more care about what direction and how whatever is going to happen.
I feel like I'm just going to hold space and that's what I was told to do anyway.
So here we are.
Also, I would love my kiddo to play you her favorite song that she really wanted to come
up and play it when you had to close, but that was a late night anyway. So maybe we could do that whenever you're in the mood to hear
a short little cute song from her.
Oh, my gosh.
Is she ready?
Is she ready now?
Let me see.
She's always ready.
Oh, my God.
That would make me so happy.
Let me see.
Let me see.
And hi, AJ.
Thank you for coming.
Hey, AJ.
What's up, guys? What's going on going on oh you know another day another day in
paradise do you want to yeah let's do that with your ukulele okay yeah she's ready let her just
have a sip of her water because she was just having a little snack oh you want to turn it
and how and how old is she she's's 11. Oh, cool.
Nice.
Yeah, we've been listening to a lot of your stuff, and then we're taking lessons together.
Oh, my goodness.
Yeah, and it's my first time coming back to the guitar, actually,
because I hadn't really done that in years
because I got busy with just everything.
I love hearing that. That makes me so happy.
Music will always be there for you. Let's see, play it and see. Is it totally out or? Okay,
let her tune it up. I'll raise my hand again. She's just going to tune it. Okay. Yeah. Okay.
So while she's tuning, yeah, we've got some more people here. So what we're talking about today in the Bloom Room is investing in yourself, whether
it's in the form of like monetary investments.
We've talked about how investing time counts because time is a finite resource.
So, you know, how you how you spend your time to me counts as an investment um
so yeah that's so far what we've talked about um and we're we're about to get some live music
from hawk's daughter which i'm really excited about um but yeah if anybody has anything they want to talk about in regards to investing in yourself
um i know i have a bunch to say on this and uh bridget has shared with us some really valuable
insight so i'm sure other people have something to say too don't hesitate to come on up join the
speaker panel um bridget's hand is up and then we'll check in with Hawk and then we'll go to Mary.
Hawk, are you listening?
Oh, yeah, always.
Okay.
So I was just tuning into your vote, what was being shared through your vocals, right?
So I wasn't diving deep into you.
But I was, when you said that at the very first, when you started talking about liquidating,
me, I personally like caught my breath, but then I felt the feel that was coming from your,
from your, your voice. You know how I am. I feel the voice, I feel what's happening in the vocals.
Um, I was like, oh my God, it's perfect. It's so perfect. So I'm so excited for you.
So I'm so excited for you because it does feel like momentum building.
And it also feels like a lot of divine orchestration happening right now.
And the fact that you said, I loved when you said, I'm not worried about the how basically, right?
Like I know I could do this in my sleep.
And I'm also not super worried about what's going to happen after.
Because I feel like you're
very held and supported in this endeavor.
And it's just about staying in congruency within yourself, which is exactly what you
shared.
That's what I was getting.
Like, that's what your team was saying a little bit through your vocal qualities.
You know how they are.
Like, when I start listening in that way, then they're like,
she's very supported. And yeah, it does feel like your astrologers are on point with all of this.
And more so than just, you know, than the amazing astrologers, you know, you know that it's time.
And taking that leap feels really aligned.
So the fact that, that you are so calm during,
during all of this is, is really amazing. And yeah, I get excited and I had to figure out the difference between excitement and
anxiety when I was on clubhouse. Cause you know,
I was petrified of public speaking. And you remember Sonia Lee?
Of course.
She was like, seriously? She started describing her excitement, what it felt like in the body.
And I was like, oh, I always thought I had anxiety when that feeling came in.
She's like, no, because I know what excitement feels like when you're joyful and all of that.
But there's also the nerve.
It's like a nervous excitement that I just assumed was anxiety.
Right.
And I don't really have a lot of that.
So when I would get it, I would kind of backpedal.
Right.
And she's like, no, you lean in.
She's also the one that told me.
You remember?
OK, so you guys don't know Sonia Lee, but she's hilarious. And she calls it like
she sees it. And when I had, when I first started public speaking, I was petrified, petrified of
public speaking when I got on Clubhouse. Literally, my voice would shake and tears would come into my
eyes. I would be just panicked. And then when I was invited to do public speaking and events,
I was talking to her and I had a lot of,
oh, what's it called? I'm blanking out on it. Imposter syndrome. Thank you, team.
And I was working through some imposter syndrome, but it really has to do with my
wounded healer, like where that is, right? And she was like, this is such bullshit.
And I was like, what? That was not what I expected to come out of her. And she was like,
all you do is public speak. You do it three times a week with hundreds of people every time. She's
like, there is no imposter in you. And the minute she said that, I mean, I was shocked and then I
laughed and then I was able to release it right um and
move through move through the fear and I I kind of had that moment when you said liquidate like that
that moment of like not not imposter syndrome but that moment of like that catch in the pause
or whatever like how I would feel if I had to liquidate everything right um or if I chose to
liquidate everything but then moving through it I chose to liquidate everything, but then moving through it,
it feels super aligned, right? I mean, yeah, your team wants to talk, but this is not that kind of
space and I don't want to take it over for Milo, but yeah, there's a lot of good and your team's
on board. So that's just, I just wanted to pour into you a little bit thank you that means the world to me
I really uh love that you confirmed everything you know I do a lot of water meditations in the
shower I keep asking like okay do you do you still want me to live here with my family
20 25 6 7 8 9 30 31 32 like they're like no you're not leaving like you have to stay here
this is where you're gonna build you know and yeah it'll start out as i rented but you know i'm gonna build from ground
up something pretty ginormous one day soon so what do you think early you ready to give us some
some love but do you want me to go from go from from wherever you want. Just feel it out. Vibe it out.
This is a beautiful musical space that Mel and Bridget and AJ and some friends are hanging out in.
And so, yeah, let's share your ukulele.
So she's going to do the ukulele version.
What's the name of the song?
Lava.
It's a Disneyney or pixar animation um and i recently learned it in my ukulele class um but yeah so i'm gonna be doing it right now
take a nice deep breath in and let it go
just go on your way okay and let it go.
Just go on your way.
Thank you. A long time ago
there was a
long time
living
all alone
in the middle of the sea
sat hiding above his bed, watching all the couples play, and wishing that he had someone to.
From this love, I'll leave this song, I hope that every day you sing out loud, every day, for years and years.
It will come true that you're here with me and I'm here with you.
I wish that, wish that the earth see the sky above will send someone to love.
I love you.
Oh my god, that was amazing!
Oh, so good.
And there's no way that that's the first song you learned.
You sound like you're already so advanced.
Is that the first song you learned you sound like you're already so advanced is that the first
song uh the first song that i learned in my ukulele class yeah uh actually i think it was
the itsy bitsy spider yeah this song actually her dad recommended to the teacher and uh yeah and
then this is yeah so she's been in that class and then the guitar
she's only taken two lessons but yeah I think she's really a natural and I love her voice and
the song is so special it's I really never heard it until she sang it and I cry every time it's
beautiful I love that song I've taught that song in my lessons.
And it's such a good song to start with on the ukulele, especially.
So I can't believe that you're a beginner because your strumming hand is so natural.
A lot of beginners have a really hard time picking up a rhythm and sticking with that rhythm consistently, but your, your strumming
hand sounds so consistent. So it's definitely natural for you. Keep it, keep it up.
Thank you so much, sweetheart. Yes. So let's continue the conversation. I didn't want her
to take up too long, so we just kind of cut it short, but thank you again for your beautiful
energy, Mel and Bridget and AJ and everyone in the space.
And I'm very grateful for the long history that I've had with many in our space.
And Hoops actually reached out to me today to, you know, get on a call with me about school and teach me a little bit more.
Mel, I haven't, I don't know how to join your, you know, school yet.
I don't really know how to, you know, toggle all the buttons yet, but I've just made a profile.
So I'll be on there shortly.
And maybe you can walk me through if he was busy.
But thank you for letting her shine her gift.
And you're a gift, honestly, in this X space.
And I love your spaces.
And so always let me definitely know when if you're ever, you know, in Arizona, let me know.
Because, yeah, I want to really, you know, I opened up my healing center really for the kids first.
And then the adults really loved what was happening there.
So it just became a family vibe.
But music is going to be hugely prevalent.
And so will my food and combination of that. So maybe one day when
you're visiting here, you'll come up to Sedona and visit us in person. We'd love to have you.
I would love that. Absolutely. Let's figure it out. I want to be involved in what you have going
on. It sounds so meaningful and so like absolutely necessary especially with what's going
on it's just um there's no better time so when you were talking about where you're at and what
you're working towards um I think that like when you're working towards something super meaningful and important, um, such as that,
it comes with some level of risk because anything worth your, anything worth it is going to come
with risk, right? Like you're never, it's never going to be like an easy, yeah, sure. Everything's
just going to fall into place and work out exactly as we hope it to be.
But I think that if we take some calculated risks and move in alignment with our goals, sometimes things do work out and sometimes it is seamless.
And it's like, oh, my God, I can't believe that happened. But it's because you're aligning yourself on, in my opinion, it's because you're aligning yourself on your path.
So to echo what Bridget was saying, it sounds like that's what you're doing.
Yeah, totally.
You nailed it.
It feels, you know, I don't know, within the last, and I've got some serious stuff on my plate to deal with that's just on the side.
But I'm just like, everything's resolved.
And the only thing I know that my guides constantly tell me is constantly walk around and say, you don't consent to this and that and the other that's being directed at you.
And so that's just one guidance and advice I have for any of you who are feeling energies that perhaps maybe if you are not protecting your own energy, to maybe also repeat and write down what you are not consenting to.
It is a choice, and we have the right to not consent.
I have a right to not consent to any energy weaponized attacks that
are coming towards me. I have the right to consent to not receiving any frequencies that are trying
to lower my energy and frequency and put me in a state of whatever manipulation that is going on.
So know that you do have that power within you to stop those forces that are trying to dim your light.
And that is just where I'll leave that.
I love it.
You reminded me of something I read earlier today.
Actually, it was a video I saw.
And it was a police officer who is dedicating his time to fighting against some really terrible evils in this world
and that's what he does all day every day is just witness terrible horrible things and someone in
the interview asked him like oh my god like how do you take care of your mind how do you take care
of yourself when all you do is learn about and try and fight
against these evil things? And he said, it's easy because even though he has to endure and experience
vicariously so many dark things, he said that no matter what, anytime lightness and darkness meet, light always wins.
That's his perception.
So he just reminds himself of that.
And that's what allows him to keep going and to not be so debilitated by all the terrible things.
So something to keep in mind.
When light and dark meet,
light always wins.
Hey Hawk, do you know Mooney's Irish pub in Sedona?
Of course.
What do you think about Mellow playing there in September?
I mean, I think it's great.
It's the only bar in town that's open late.
Yeah.
September, huh? Let me great. It is the only bar in town that's open late. Yeah. September, huh?
Let me see what month is this?
Because I'll be at, there's conferences I go to every September around there.
And we actually seen it.
You know what?
Yeah, we seen it and was like, wow, imagine Miller B playing there.
Like after the conference, you could bring people to that place.
And that place is like an old Irish pub in Sedona, but it's actually pretty cool.
It totally is. Um, yes. Um, that's, that's one vibe that she could have if that's the vibe that
she wants to. Um, and then there's other places as well, where I feel, um, her heart and her energy,
uh, will activate even on a stronger plateau and, that out. Because at the end of the day,
we are at a bar with alcohol and la la la. And even though it's fun to do that every so often,
I'm kind of steering right now in the energy of staying super sober and super present.
So as much as I'd love to have like a day where we go and,
and, you know, hang out and have fun. But if like, she is going to perform and really put her
heart and soul into it, I mean, there's a lot of spaces in this area that will really echo her
beautiful heart and not that Moonies won't. And so again, if anyone is listening about
Moonies, like I'm not dodging it. He's killing Moonies. You're killing it,
you're killing it. You took a big Hawk dump on Moonies. I did. But like, I literally,
yeah, I'm not even like, like using marijuana for medicine. I'm that purely clean at the moment. And I've been for
like, let's say about like the last four or five months.
Isn't the clarity, isn't the clarity like remarkable?
It's interesting you say that because sometimes while I enter the medicine with, uh, what are you,
what are you wanting me to know?
So there's a conversation that happens with me,
but it also relaxes my big dick energy because there's a lot going on.
There's a lot going on.
Did I hear that correctly?
Yeah, you did.
You did.
I was going to say that.
Very big dick energy that rarely ever peaks itself out. But it has come out in 50 plus years, maybe around six times. So not often, but when it does, it humbles people, it will level you, it will make you think it will put you in your place, but in a really not like a harsh, angry way, but if that energy, like I'm trying to stay as calm and centered and
focused as much as I can with the information I am receiving in the knowing of the people I have
worked with and the people that have been in my ecosystem and having to digest all of that,
and having to digest all of that, especially some of my very high profile clients.
So there's a battle happening with me right now where I don't want to quiet any of that.
And therefore, even when I'm like my husband and I will have like a cocktail together and
have date night like once a week.
But sometimes I like to have a little buzz, but it's even happening like it won't it will not happen at all like
it's the weirdest thing so that just means to me like no girl right now you
gonna be sober like very alert and you're gonna feel it all and you're
gonna see it all and then that is what's going to help you curate this space that you are going to build
again from ground up to really push that activation out. And whether it's virtual,
whether it's in person, which I'm very excited to meet people again, walking into my space,
because imagine 39 years since I was 14 that's all I've known is just
welcoming you into our spaces into our community into my food my restaurants and the healing and
whatever else even my mechanic shop my body shop I know cars really well like any service industry
I wear a lot of different hats and it's always been to be of service. And I just
miss that after COVID and fuck these people. And I'm just done, you know? So pandemic, whatever,
another virus, whatever, none of it is going to affect me or anyone. That frequency is going to
be so strong in that space. That is going to be a space where it is going to hold you.
And no matter what you're going through, you're going to feel it just as you did in Santa Monica when people actually have verbally said that and spoke about it when I had my space open back then.
So Bridget is right.
The guides are right.
I'm feeling it.
And yes, we'll go to Moonies, but it's up to her. I'll leave it
up to her where she wants to perform because I certainly would love to take her to the full moon
party to have a beautiful full moon ceremony upon one of the beautiful red rocks. It's every full
moon. Oh my goodness. Okay. So can I just move? I want to just move there. Come over here. Yeah, I'm trying to get everybody here. Actually. It's funny, though, to be honest
with you, a lot of my own employees from Los Angeles, like their husband or boyfriend or
partners are getting positions in weirdly in Arizona. And like, my manager just called me
and was like, you know, he's about to think and I might
move there I'm like holy shit like what is happening this is amazing I would love it I
would love it because I love the heat but I love dry heat and I've heard it's like it's a dry heat
I've no I'm in Canada so there's many places I have not been. You know that Canadians own their second or third homes here.
Oh, yeah.
Yeah.
A lot of Canadians go to Arizona because like so arthritis, a lot of people that retire, they go to Arizona because arthritis doesn't get as inflamed when you're in dry heat versus humid heat.
And our summers are really humid here
so um and the cold isn't good for arthritis either so a lot of you know seniors they retire
and they they move out to arizona because it's a nice and dry heat honestly i don't think you'll
leave if you come i really don't i i have a feeling you're just gonna. I know, I know. I gotta, I need to, uh,
yeah, I need to be somewhere hot with sun and lots of places to play and stuff like that.
That's, that's my goal. Um, let's get to some hands. We see, I see that Essence here and Mary's
here. Um, let's jump, let let's do ladies first we'll go to Mary
and then we'll go to Essen and then um we will continue with the conversation from there and I
would love to see other people come up if anybody wants to come up and join the stage that'd be
awesome what's up Mary hey um you know this I this really feels like so um like synchronicity to me. I just want to say, Hawk, I actually lived in
Hawaii for a long time, and your daughter playing that song, it's very personal to a family member
of mine. And so I feel like I was really meant to speak to you tonight, especially because
yesterday I was out. I just recently moved to North Carolina and I was out and it's windy and the plumage of a red-tailed hawk flew right in front of me.
And I was like, oh, wow.
Well, that's a gift from spirit.
So I picked it up.
I put it in my dream catcher.
And so I just want to affirm with you that, you know, Pluto and Aquarius is all about great masses of people
moving and shifting. And this, this is a huge move for me too. And like I, my whole life changed so
many things in my life changed family dynamics and, um, you know, where I was meant to be for
spirit to use me at, um, the, the, for the benefit of the masses, honestly.
And you being in that vortex right now
and choosing the path that you're on right now,
it sounds like you've been in healing for a while,
but it's just, it's completely aligned
with where we're going.
And really consciousness is the new currency.
And I have a shaman who I'm particularly fond of
out in Arizona. I met him last year in February around this time. And he's always repeating over
and over and over again, time and attention is the currency of the universe. And we get so caught up
in, you know, this money magic scheme that we're all like participating in right now.
this money magic scheme that we're all like participating in right now.
But that's not really the essence of what we're going to is, you know,
with this elevation and consciousness that we're all going through together.
And, you know, it's just so funny that this bar is called Moonies and you're like,
well, I'm ruminating between a full moon ceremony and Moonies, you know,
and it is to each.
She's probably meant to be at both of those places, to be honest with you.
You're right.
You're right.
She's right.
She's meant to be at both of them.
You want a full moon?
What's better than Moonies?
And we're right now we're at this apex right now.
I'm speaking right now because I was told it was time to collaborate in the new moon.
I mean, the full moon in Leo and to speak out and, you know, have the entrepreneurial spirit, which is what this platform is all about.
Right. We're all here because Uncle Elon, you know, he he's the ultimate entrepreneur of our time.
Right. And he's bringing people together to recreate this new world that we also going to be our lunar new year, the lunar new year,
which will be the year of the fire horse.
And a lot of the chaos that has happened in the last two years to all of us is going to
charge forward into this beautiful, like horses.
Think about what horses have done for humanity.
That's the kind of energy we're bringing forward right now. You know, like the war horse,
the workhorse, you know, the horse that carries the load, that runs through the desert and doesn't
stop. So, you know, really focus on that going up to the 17th because between this last full moon, which, you know, Leo governs celebrities, we all saw what happened.
The Grammys got knocked out by Nicki Minaj.
And, you know, we're seeing what's happening right now during the Super Bowl.
I was like, I don't even want to participate.
I already know the Patriots are going to win.
I already know that, you know, I want nothing to do with the halftime show because it's going to be whack. And, you know, we'll just, I was meant to be here
tonight to just affirm with you that those things that you're creating, you're co-creating the
reality that you seek here on this platform and with the people that you've been exposed to. And,
you know, keep
that vibration high and thank you so much for sharing your story.
And I'm grateful that somehow we both already follow each other too, which is so funny.
So I was really meant to give you this message today because when I got this plumage, I was
like, wow, this is like one of the most intimate parts of a red-tailed hawk, the part that's closest to the skin.
Right. Like and, you know, it just seems really, really like I was meant to tell you this tonight.
So, you know, I hope that as you go forward in your journey in Sedona, I've never been there, but I really, really want to go.
I have a friend who goes there all the time and she hosts like healings there. So this is just affirming to me
that I'm meant to go there this year also. So thank you so much for letting me speak and I'll
hand the mic back, but just wanted to get that out there. Cause I was like, wow, I'm writing all
this stuff down. I'm like, oh my gosh, this is meant to be tonight.
I love it.
Isn't it funny how things just end up feeling connected,
and you're like, wait, how did we both end up here at the same time?
And it seems like we needed to, right?
It's funny how those moments happen,
because that's definitely happened to me in spaces for sure.
And I'm like, we're all connecting on some weird
some weird level here um and uh yeah I just appreciate you being here and sharing
absolutely beautiful I just wanted to say Mary thank you for that I see hawks all the time um
I had a very special eagle at my healing center during the Black Lives Matter protest looting that happened.
And I'm constantly calling for that attention of my eagle to return. And it's just amazing that
I have two crows and two ravens above my roof of my home all the time protecting the house and me
and the energy and these hawks are constantly flying around. But in the purple pill, I put a couple of the feathers
that were in Los Angeles that happened to fall onto our lap,
literally at a park while my kid was playing.
So that's for you.
And thank you for your story.
Hey, Hawke, can I ask you a question?
Have you ever been to a Bashar event in Sedona?
You know, I love Bashar.
And every time I tried to see him,
either I was late to it or my back wasn't feeling good because I'm dealing with some back injuries at the moment. But yeah, so he does come. But you know, funny enough, at another time, I'll share a really important, funny thing about the, I'm Persian. So I'll share something. I have a beautiful pamphlet that my sister-in-law's
husband's brother created about Persia and the history and all of the lineage. And it's so funny
because Belrock actually, well, you know, his fleet is above Belrock, right? And so, and the
ancestry of the names, actually, there was two names, two kings.
One was my dad's name, and then the other queen was, and a sister, it was my mom's name,
which I had never even any idea about this until I went way back into the history,
way all before. And that has a lot to do with this bell rock and why I'm called here
and why that meditation drew me here back in 2023
on April 27th when I was sun gazing. So I just unlocked my account. I do lock it up. So if
anybody cares to stay connected and feel free to follow me on this one and I'll give you my info,
we can connect. And Mel, thank you so much again for letting me share. And Bridget,
I love you. Thank you so much. And AJ, I can't wait to see you guys here. So whoever's coming
here, I will be a big staple in this town. So yeah. AJ, you said September, right? That's when
that happens? Yeah. So Hawk Bashar really helped me. He helped me on my book a lot so um you know he's
helped me out a lot he actually has a conference in february but um every september there's going
to be a conference uh the conference in sedon is great but yeah melo maybe uh this if you get your
stuff together you could perform out there and do the after party we i know i now know like what we
would do like for you like we would say like moonies like moonies you would set up something like that or whatever yeah yeah yeah now that like yeah because now we have like you
have an idea of what it would look like right that's awesome okay yeah let's talk about it um
because i am i mean like i want to do my tour this summer anyway september is
in that time frame so yeah maybe that could be one of the stops. That'd be sick.
Play a few different venues there.
Yeah, you only do what you could do
because it's very difficult.
You got to come from Canada.
So even if I have something like that,
if you don't want to do it,
don't only worry about yourself.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, it's totally doable.
It's just a matter of like,
because I'm not an American citizen,
I have to get a,
we've had this conversation.
I got to get a visa to perform, especially if I'm getting paid.
There she is cooking again.
It's so funny, right?
Right on cue.
I know.
Every time.
Every time.
It's actually hilarious.
Like now, every time we're in a space, AJ points out that I'm, you know, hitting the pots and pans.
But I got to, got to cook, you know, got to cook.
I mean, this is leftovers.
Guys, guess what I did I I'm in my
meal prepping era right so I try to make food that will last for a while put some in the freezer as
like emergency food because sometimes I get home real late musicians we get home super late and
then it's like fuck I don't want to cook something and then you end up ordering something and it's just like you end up spending too much money on food so i i made a whole ass turkey dinner guys
i made mashed potatoes i made a whole turkey made all the fixings and i'm so excited about it
it's so good delicious get me hungry you don't have to make turkey dinner for christmas or thanksgiving it
can be outside of the holidays let me ask mr witch mr witch you have the best profile bio
i've ever seen i gotta read it hold on thank you it's uh it's probably a unique one for sure. To make my twin flame the first
female pope, yes.
What do you think about the twin flame journey
people seem to be on here
and there? I think it's
good. I mean, your twin flame is pretty
much like your other half in
different ways, and
I feel, I don't know, it's a
sense of coming together with yourself
as well as God that's within, so, i don't know it's a sense of coming together with yourself as well as god
that's within so i don't know it's exciting that a lot of twin flames are finding their equal half
did you find yours yeah i found her out in vietnam back in 2018
interesting not many a few of my friends they've been on these journeys and they just, it didn't
work out.
It's just, it's very volatile.
Yeah, no, it's complicated.
I mean, my twin flame is still my twin flame.
We've been broken up for several years and she's been with another boyfriend.
She lives in France and what have you.
But at the end of the day, we still are, as much as we don't want to be, sometimes we are twin flames.
And there is that sense of soul connection there.
Mr. Witch, could you explain what a twin flame is?
Oh, boy.
Yeah, to put that into word.
I don't know.
Essentially, it's like somebody that like
like reflects you and there's a bit of on like the same soul journey that is also like the
opposite of you like I can use my flame for example she uh she lives she's from France
uh she's a lawyer went to one of the you know, universities in the world type of situation of things.
And I was a few years younger, you know, girls don't usually date younger guys, but here we go.
And like, I went to the most like average college that you can think of in Tennessee.
Average, average, probably maybe even below, but I don't know, it was a four year degree, whatever.
And I've just, as my career, since I did my bachelor's, I've just been like, you know, a bit of like a backpacker,
like a bit of a hippie backpacker.
And though we are like very different in that regard
for like careers and what have you,
we're the exact same person, you know?
Like she, yeah, she went to school
and had a proper career like in Paris and what have you.
Everyone looks great, quite elegant to say the least.
She's wearing the old vans, a cell phone that should have been tossed out two years ago.
That kind of thing.
Every weekend she's always traveling and being an athlete and triathletes and what triathlons and what have you
and but like our sort of like middle ground is just like common laughter like you don't have
to think much when you're around them like you are you're almost like channeling in some sort
of like regard uh but still like using like the spoken word but to define a twin flame i think it's just like
it's essentially like you your soul like split into two which is weird to say uh living like
two different like versions of like the reality through two different gender expressions but still
having that middle ground of like being the same person if that makes sense so what would be the
difference between that and a soulmate?
Or is it the same thing?
You know what?
I think Bridget can answer that better
because that's a question that's a really good one,
and I've been asked this before.
And I've come up with some really good answers in the past,
but I feel like Bridget would be able to answer that better right now.
So a twin flame, twin flames are a mirror reflection.
So a lot of what happens in a twin flame experience, like the first time I heard of that and I felt into it, I was like, I don't want that.
I was like, it feels like it's going to be full of intensity because you are similar, but you're also helping
each other work out the kinks, basically. So it creates a lot of friction. A soulmate is going to
be much more harmonious. And they're all different names for all of these things right now, right?
Soulmates can be, they don't have to be just romantic right so it can
be friends family teacher mentor you know short-term connections can it be can it be my cat
can it be my cat because i really feel like my cat is i believe that my cats are my soulmates
so you you're we are on that same wavelength right now, sis.
So, sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt, but like...
It's usually a soul family thing, right?
Your soulmates are soul family.
There's never a shortage of people that you can have a deep connection with
if you allow yourself to.
We have a lot of soulmates.
I was muting up for Mr. Witch.
What were you going to say?
Oh, sorry. Yeah, no yeah no i mean when she was talking
about the cat thing like i my twin flame and i we are twin flames like to the core when you get into
it like astrologically like gematria like symbols and like we're doing the exact same shit in a
different reflective way at all times like everywhere but But I feel the soulmate when she said,
oh, or like her cat, like he he, like maybe.
I think so.
So like my twin flame, like she like has always like
lived with and has this like little plush,
like whale that she sleeps with.
And like, that's her like best friend.
And that's who she's been with like for her entire life.
And I know it's weird and it's not even alive.
Like, you know, like Mel's like cat, but I feel like the soulmate could be a lot of different things. Like, I feel like my twin flame soulmate is her whale, you know? I know that's like a little out there, but I don't think it has to 100% be like a human.
I agree. I'm eating ice cream. So hold on on one second i don't do this very often
oh sorry i feel like i have multiple like i feel like i don't know it does feel like there's
multiple people in my life that could be you know that is it like is it like when you meet
somebody and you're like oh we know each other like you've you've never met but you meet and you're like yeah we go way back
that's that's yeah that's a soulmate to me right we've lived lifetimes together
on earth and beyond right and then the twin flame is more of like
two sides of the same coin but showing each other each other's shadow.
And if you have really worked through a lot of that and done a lot of integration and a lot of healing, then it moves more into like the, what do they call it now?
There's so many labels for these things right now, but it's like the divine union, right? And that's where it's like a whole other level.
And that's what everybody wants
and thinks they're going to get when they get a twin flame. But I mean, think of the name,
twin flame, right? What does fire do? It burns. It also destroys and creates at the same time,
right? But that's kind of the whole the whole
vibe of it and the twin I think is there's so much magnetism in that there can be such a fiery
you know sexual energy but also that that deep intensity and so people really it it excites
people the idea of it and then they get it and it's like hard deep intense like volatile but
also deeply connected at the same time right so giving a soulmate any Israel's here he's my soul
mate Israel come on the white knight soulmates Israel and Mo's here too Mo Mo grab a mic I'm
whipping mics around nobody's grabbing him them alright Israel come on come up
Talk to us let's talk woo
Yeah I would agree like find yourself a soulmate
Don't find yourself a fucking twin flame
Like god damn like this is like the coolest person
I've ever like dated in my entire life
Like
Outside of like dating like I've learned
She opened my spiritual channel I hers and like and, like, all this crazy stuff.
But, like, at the end of the day, like, it's fucking exhausting.
And I think people should just find themselves, like, a soulmate.
Like, when I met my twin flame, I didn't know what the hell a twin flame was until a couple years later.
Into it.
And then I broke up with her long distance and blah, blah, blah, blah.
And then, like, way after, I'm like, oh, shit, I broke up with her long distance and blah blah blah and then like way after I'm like oh shit I broke up with my twin flame that's my other half I didn't even know what a twin flame
was but yeah it's intense it's great but it's intense and I'd recommend people just finding
their soulmates like the twin flame has a cool name to it but it's not worth it really. Well, and I feel like there's when, when the
relationship, because, because they're so hard, right. They're so intense that there's this
longing that, that really doesn't die down for a very, very long time that one or both people have.
I, oh my God, I had so many conversations with people on the other app about that.
Oh my God, I had so many conversations with people on the other app about that.
And I highly recommend just calling back your energy, you know, but with a twin flame,
it's a little bit different because that is essentially like it's supposed to be.
And I've seen some things in my soul searching, you know, that I always do to find knowledge and information. I've seen
some things that point to same soul, different bodies, but we do that across the board in a lot
of different things, right? So, and it doesn't always have that relationship. I feel like there
are particular frequencies that it's bringing into our lives when we have a twin flame experience. Bridget, do you think that soulmates find each other near bodies of water? Because
I've been told that by several healers. I mean, I reunited with my husband 26 years ago,
right in Santa Monica, playing volleyball by the water right at magic hour. Have you heard that?
I have not heard it. I feel like anything's possible, but I've met a lot. I mean,
I'm landlocked, right? I'm in Texas, so in the north, north, north central. So,
you know, I have a lot of soulmates that I've met here and not by water, but anything's possible.
Hey, Israel, I'm glad you're up here.
What's up, everyone?
You came in.
We're talking about soulmates, Israel.
You guys are sneaking in a Sunday convo, huh?
What's up, Israel?
It's good because it shows that you guys aren't asleep.
We need some guys in here.
I know, man.
It's a nice...
I'm out of breath.
I'm hiking right now
with my dog.
Yeah,
Twin Flames.
Interesting combo.
You guys
don't think that Twin Flames...
And I'm not going to jump
in front of the hands.
I'll make it quick.
It could be also
Quantum Entanglement in a way
on a spiritual level.
100%, but I think it's on a soul level, right?
It's the same kind of vibe.
And what's going on, everyone?
I like the title too.
Yeah, we're like, I don't know.
We're having a broad discussion
about investing in yourself.
That's where it started.
We're, I mean, in more ways than just like monetarily, like investing.
How do you spend your time?
You know, are you spending your time wisely in accordance to, you know, your goals, your path, whatever you want to call it?
That kind of took us down the twin flame and soulmate
route a little bit. Investing time into learning about yourself, self-assessment, all that
fun stuff. What do you think, Israel?
I haven't found the photon to my photon. I have not. I call my twin flame the photon,
my twin photon. Because raw light, right?
Think about it.
But yeah, let me stop you for a second.
I believe the way you spend time with yourself is really important
because you're always distracted in many ways in one,
in a financial world economic uh
spiritual mental emotional and so i tell people that if you if you meditate for five minutes
it's not enough but it's a start but it's not enough for the shitty the rest of the uh
23 hours and 55 minutes every day including you sleep how did you guys
notice that you sleep you still wake up tired all the stuff that they're hitting us with and so
it's more important now than ever to to do your me time if that's gardening if that's working out
if that's reading the book anything that gives you clarity, because if you don't have clarity,
you cannot see the end result. And if you cannot see the end result to a goal,
how are you supposed to trust the process?
Oh my God, that was so good, Israel.
Mic drop. Mic drop.
I love when he comes in.
Yeah, I can be all over the place a little bit.
I mean, I think I'm pretty organized because of my Virgo moon.
But I can have so many wants and desires and things that I want to create.
And I get so many ideas that come in all the time that what I do I do is I keep a, like a list of them. Right. And then I
decide what is the most relevant and also resonant. Right. And that's what I work on.
Otherwise I'll be like in the, I'll, I'll just only be in creation mode and it's like,
things don't get to completion the way I like them to. Hopefully that made sense.
No, I know if you have a couple of competing things that you want to get done,
a couple of competing projects, that could be paralyzing.
But one always does pull ahead all the time.
You know what's the magic, guys? It's always in the choice you make.
The unknown always gives you that fear, right?
It doesn't matter what it is.
The uncomfortable, the unknown.
Hey, did you cut out?
Oh, no.
We lost him right at the punchline.
He was cooking, right?
He was cooking like Mella.
No, I thought he said he was on a walk with his dog or something.
He is, but he was...
Imagine he comes back in like 2045.
Oh, you know, I have to inject $1,000 into this.
I'm not sure if I can do it.
I have money.
But you know that at the end of...
Oh, he can't hear us now.
He's cooking and he's like...
I want to hear what he's saying, too, because it feels so good.
I'm still feeling fucking.
It's like, what's that movie?
They shut up, like,
bars come, they shut the mic off and he talks
for, like, an hour.
Israel, can you hear us? He's still going.
He's cooking and we're just not getting
any of it. He just
spiked the mic right there too.
Like, yes.
Wait, hold on.
Israel, can you hear us?
We lost you.
This app is just ridiculous.
Oh, he dropped down.
Yeah, I kicked him down.
He was stuck.
Okay, gotcha.
Israel, you there?
Holy shit. Bro, you were cooking, cooking man you were cooking and it just cut
out it cut out for like the last two minutes but you were cooking we missed the whole thing
and i really wanted to hear it because it felt so good israel and melo wants to hear it so
we lost you at uncomfortable oh my goodness that's almost everything. All right. I know and I want to hear it so much.
What I was saying is, new year, new me. So here's a question for everyone in this space.
Have you started to get uncomfortable? If you have not, then you haven't grown this year.
And the whole part of growing is to get uncomfortable. Let go of the fear.
My example that I was sharing was,
let's just say the fear doesn't let you see.
The fear keeps you stagnant
and comfortable keeps you stagnant.
They're almost one in the same.
So how do you break out of that?
Well, get uncomfortable, right?
You have a project where the project
needs you to inject $1,000 into that project,
but you cannot let go of those 1,000
because you're nervous, you're scared, you're unsure.
Of course, you have your reasons.
But the more you analyze,
the more your brain is going to keep you safe.
And how does your brain keep you safe?
By convincing you not to spend those $1,000.
However, if you do the math on that project,
you know that the end result is a $10,000 return.
So you know the answer to this project, and know that the end result is a $10,000 return. So you know the answer to this project.
And you know you'll get that return tenfold.
But you cannot let go of those $1,000.
So the fear goes away when you make the choice.
Every damn time, guys.
You make that choice, fear goes away.
And then you finally start trusting the process.
I love it.
What about, so I think that kind of leads us to the conversation of risk
tolerance. And I think that's important because, you know, I kind of sent me down the train of
thought of like investment portfolios and stuff like that. when you get into investing you have to start thinking about
okay what is my risk tolerance how much am I willing to risk in order for some potential
rewards right if you're not thinking that way when you get into investments you just kind of
like put money into things willy-nilly you're not really thinking that far
Israel you said like okay, maybe you got to put a thousand dollars into this project But you've done the math and you've worked out that you can make ten thousand dollars
Yeah, so like that that concept of risk tolerance to me
Tolerance to me, how does one differentiate what is worth the risk and what is not, first
How does one?
of all?
Because that's like a really tough thing.
I feel like most people wouldn't know where to begin.
So I don't know if anybody has anything to say on that.
How do you determine your risk tolerance?
What's worth your risk?
I mean, I'm so sorry. Go ahead.
No, listen, that's a great question. That's one for the ages because I really think there's a
way to simplify it. I keep saying it all the time. If you could take all the money managers in the
world, you could take Warren Buffett, Ray the world, you could take Warren Buffett,
Ray Dalio, you could take anyone, any of the top investors and put them up against the S&P 500
ETF, the S&P 500. The S&P 500 is a no fee investment, meaning you don't get charged for
the fee. And not one of these big producers, not one of these big investors
could beat the S&P 500 over a long period of time, five, 10 years. Nobody could be there.
The only person that beat it was like Nancy Pelosi because they were inside of trading.
But as far as risk tolerance, everybody should be automatically investing and dollar cost
averaging into the S&P 500. I don't care how high it is now.
I don't care if it drops. I don't care if it goes up. The fact of the matter is you shouldn't
be looking at dollar amount. You should be accumulating amounts of shares because you do
that, you invest with the top managers in the entire world and it makes you one of the smartest
people in the world. Just knowing that investment strategy. The Warren Buffetts, they knew this.
The big investors on Wall Street, they know this. So once you do that, you could really
dollar cost average into that. And after time, it builds up so magnificently that if you would
have put like $10,000 15 years ago into that, it'll be worth like,
you know, 20 times that right now. It is ridiculous. So as far as risk tolerance,
you don't need to be a trader. You could just know that. And that's a very low risk
way of doing things. So you could actually reduce your risk, but increase your chances of succeeding
in finance. Risk management is like the number one thing you go over. You go
over standard deviations and understanding risk versus reward. For example, you could get a,
no, I don't want to talk about bonds. That's a little boring. Anyway, but that risk tolerance
is everything. And you could automatically invest into something like that, get rid of all risk.
As far as finding a significant other, I think the riskiest thing
we could do is choose, you know, you choose the wrong person. That's why it's good to be
friends first. You see like Mella and her future husband, they're friends. You know,
they were friends first. That reduces a lot of the risks. You know, people are meeting each other
on dating sites. And then after six months, they're getting a little serious, but they don't
know who the person is. When you're friends with somebody before that,
you kind of know who they are. That reduces your risks. So finance and picking the right person
will reduce your risks in life and messing up this life. And there's one more thing about like
choosing the right person. I really do believe that each of us, including myself, like you need
to be almost the best version of yourself,
and you'll attract that type of version for you. If you're not balanced and you're not in the right
spot, you might not be your best self and you might attract the wrong, I don't know, there's
that thing too. No, 1,000%, AJ, 1,000%. If you're a two, you're going to attract the two. If you're
a 10, you're going to attract the 10. what if you're a two that's really good at pretending you're a 10
and then you get into a relationship with a 10 and then you you default like default settings
kick back in and you start reverting back to like being two energy and then 10 the the 10 you're
with is like what the fuck is happening? I'm just, you know.
Like 10 isn't hot?
Absolutely.
That's going to happen.
No, stay away from 10s.
The hotter they are, the crazier they are, and the bigger the headache they are.
That's the rules.
That should be in Genesis number one.
The hotter they are, the bigger the headache.
And then it should have went to like Eve.
Like, look, you see?
She's eating the apple.
There she goes.
You know what I mean?
So that should have been, that's what it should have been.
She's at her third fucking apple.
Exactly.
Genesis 1-1 should say the hotter that she is, the crazier she is.
And the more you fucked up your life is going to be.
It's like, you guys have watched How I Met Your Mother, right?
Barney, he explains the hot crazy scale.
It's like one of the best scenes in that show.
If you haven't watched it, look it up on YouTube.
It's really good. But it's true.
The hotter you are, the crazier you are.
You can see it in their eyes.
Do you guys have a hand? Do you guys see it?
Unless it's part of the emoji?
The avatar?
Essen has his hand up?
Oh my gosh. To me, on my end,
it says... I don't see any hands.
On my end, it says Essen is a listener still. Oh my gosh. To me, on my end, it says... I don't see any hints. On my end, it says Essen is a listener still.
Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry.
No, he's playing me. I fell for it. That's part of his PFP.
No, okay, wait. Essen, are you here with us?
Yes.
Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry.
It was showing you as a listener on my end how are you
welcome oh he does have a hand okay
hey uh good day everyone um i'm actually glad to be here and listening to the conversation
okay um shout out to everyone okay Okay, so to the topic,
I just wanted to say a little about the topic,
investing in yourself.
And this is the direction I will actually come from.
Okay, so most times when I think
or just picture investing in yourself,
one thing that comes to mind,
I'm looking at it from, let's say, data, for example.
There's always, okay, say garbage in, garbage out.
So whatsoever you put in, that's what you get out.
And I remember while joining the space,
Melabi was actually saying something.
She said, they say, put your eggs in one your eggs don't put your eggs in one basket or
yeah put your eggs in different basket but ensure that the basket you're putting your egg in
is actually a good one so yes so you ensure that okay whatever it is that you're letting in is
actually good okay we're bringing it now to okay invest in yourself so it's it's um important
that um you know just as bridget spoke about time that you are actually investing your time
your time on what really matters yeah so um now looking at it from okay that's a business
um one question that actually comes to mind is, okay, why do people invest?
Why do people invest their money?
And when you look at it, you see that, okay, the reason they do so is actually to, maybe
for security, maybe for future plans, or longevity and so on.
So one thing you can pick from there you know about investing yourself is
i see it as self-preservation yes self-preservation that as time goes on you are not just
you're not just you know in your in your in your world or you're not just in the society but you
are there and you're actually making impacts not to the best of your capacity
not beneath your capacity but to the best of your capacity
so is that you ensure that okay you are
constantly daily you know planting seeds in your lives that we ensure that the long run, you remain valuable, you remain
impactful, you remain useful. So that's the picture. That's the way I actually see it.
And I'm actually grateful for the opportunity to speak. Thank you so much.
Hessen, thank you, man.
Appreciate that.
Hang out up here.
Yeah, thank you.
It's true.
It seems like we're all on the same page here.
It's almost like I'm surrounding myself with people that align, right?
We're all in alignment.
It's beautiful. I love it. Thanks for coming up.
Appreciate you. Israel, I see your hand. Yeah. So answering the question of the risk assessment,
in my, on my finance side, as far as building a portfolio, the way I approached it was whatever, kind of like when you lend some money.
If you lend a brother or sister money, they ask you for 500 bucks.
The money is already lost the minute you give it to them.
If you get it back, you're lucky, right?
So it's the same mindset that I use when it came to buying some shares or buying some crypto.
If this thing tanks, these $100 or these one thousand dollars isn't gonna break me and i will be okay and that's how i
started little by little my my tolerance and my tolerance has gone up significantly it's
all relevant to the person the risk tolerance right um in building a business I've I've recommended people
including my sons that make it a hobby first fund that hobby until the hobby is
able to pay pay up then you can leave your full-time job because your hobby
will not be your new job slash your passion whatever you're working towards
right so you know as of right, I have a big portfolio.
I do not put my eggs in one basket.
I've diversified so much and I've been grateful.
And it's been helpful.
Even with this decline that happened,
I'm still in very strong positions.
And so what I would tell someone is,
you know, a risk is never a risk if you've put the time into it to educate yourself about that move you're going to make.
So it'll be an educated risk.
But that's an okay risk because you know how it ends.
The best case scenario and the worst case scenario.
At the end of the day, even if you lost those $1,000, hopefully you've learned the lesson and you can now make that money back in a different
way. But I'm one to take risks, not stupid ones. I calculate them, but I'm that person that likes
to take risks for some reason. And that's just probably my demeanor. I do have a lot of losses,
but I do have an overwhelming amount of wins with it. I got a question for you, Israel.
have an overwhelming amount of wins with it.
I got a question for you, Israel.
If you were a hot, hot, really hot girl,
would you do OnlyFans?
If you could like cut your face off,
nobody will see your face
and you could have the potential of making big money.
Would you do it?
If I'm a tenant with no brains, probably.
But you know, you know, I've met some strippers in my life.
My friends, they became strippers
who are hella fucking smart.
And they were just passing by
through the stripper journey,
made that money, and then build stuff with it.
Finish school or whatever.
If you could make like,
these girls are making like a million a month
like on feed pics and stuff.
I would at least do feed pics, definitely.
No doubt.
I'd be doing more than the feet but yeah
you would write me too probably oh my god for sure they both would right mella it would run
through my mind i think they would yeah i think they'd be successful like i i could picture aj
being like the one that like um you know gets like super fancy pedicures and like puts a lot of effort
and like stages the photos so it's like here's like some beach photos and here's some like
you know I'm at I'm on a construction site like you know he's doing like the themed stuff
and then I could see Israel being like the the like um what you see is what you get you know like yo like I'm just
relaxed I'm chill like nonchalant like I don't try too hard you know that's what I could picture
meanwhile he's like setting up the whole scene for forever to look like
make it look effortless yeah so I try hard so I try hard I'll be trying hard if I only can. AJ's overt in Israel would be, what is it, covert?
I don't remember.
You guys know what I'm trying to say.
AJ would be like, I'm trying so hard, but it looks so good doing it.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
But you know, at the end, AJ would win because men like that.
Men like that when the girl's like, oh, oopsie, you know.
And they're like, oh, she's so cute trying. They'll flood him with money. They'll be like, oh, oopsie, you know? And they're like, oh, no, she's so cute trying.
They'll flood him with money.
They'll be like, here, take my crypto.
Yeah, but they like the other two.
They're like, I'm just, I woke up like this.
Remember when that was like this?
Yeah, exactly.
That's my point, yeah.
That would be Israel.
Yeah, there's a market for everything.
Like red hair, there's a market for everything.
Even if people are like dwarves, there's like a market for that, right?
It's crazy.
People are simping like nuts.
It's ridiculous.
It's actually crazy.
And I feel like, I don't know.
I just, the people, I have to be careful with my words here
because I don't know who's in the
audience but like those they could be such great entrepreneurs they have the work ethic they have
the drive they have the marketing skills they have the branding knowledge they they know what
they're doing right and they could be just like they could be like some of the top ceos in the
world and they're like no I'm gonna sell feet pics
Dude, Mella and then they become one of the top CEOs in the world if they start like
Yeah training people on how to do stuff like that. Yeah, couple friends of mine were go-go dancers
and there are some of the cutest girls in East LA for real and now they own like I think three beauty salons
for real and um now they own like i think three beauty salons
yeah you gotta start somewhere right
my mother was a dancer you're next i want to say how you sir what's up baby how you doing
listen you guys this is gonna sound fucking hilarious that you're bringing this up but
i was in one of my finance spaces and one of my friends turned around and said um yeah there
was his friend who's an astrophysicist created an OnlyFans account and repurposed some of the
educational um stuff on YouTube and literally made overnight like eleven hundred dollars and on my ears perked up and I was like wait a fucking
second what and uh yeah that is a fact um and then I was also told because I'd never been on there
because I thought it was just like you know just you know whatever beat it off and just you know
go go to sleep or whatever um so I just never like paid attention to it i'm nothing against porn whatever to each their own but
um and then i heard there's a chef on there teaching cooking then i sat with myself and i
was like well on only fans yeah yeah bro wow and then so i called up my my corporate boss um very
high up so i was like yeah um i have something to ask you guys um this was brought to
my attention and I am one to like really shift energies and make people reconnect again on a
more personal level than just like what everybody's you know into for a quick fix and let's move on
to the next hot girl and blah, blah.
And what happened to conversation? What happened to eye contact? What happened to how to even speak
to a man? How to even speak to a girl? How to even speak to a young gentleman who's just growing
into his adolescence where he's over the age of 18, whatever, of course, but, you know, still doesn't know like the proper way to
talk to a girl or all of that. So I brought it to them and they approved it. They just said,
don't put your logo, don't put your face and don't put your name, but go for it. And then
once you hit it, you're going to discuss it at the conference. And I'm like, so guess what?
I did.
I created it.
I told you my back was out.
So I haven't been able to create my meditations for it and test it out.
But yeah, your friend here is actually going to be a beta tester.
And I'm going to test that out and see.
Because I'll be honest with you.
I have a lot to offer
and none of these, I think, platforms, even including X when I had my business account
on here, really, other than like me knowing like our group from Clubhouse where back in the day
when we all lost our shit and we all helped each other in all sorts of capacities, however we could during all of those years, I don't,
I never felt supported.
So I've always had to create a membership, stick it on my own website, drive everybody
to my website and so on and so forth.
And now I'm like, you know what?
And oh my God, I forgot to tell you the punchline.
So of course I brought it to, after I got a yes and an okay, I went and created it.
However, I had deleted my business Instagram got a yes and an okay, I went and created it. However,
I had deleted my business Instagram and all of my business accounts hardcore deleted, because of all this meta AI, because I've had people again, that shouldn't be messaging me
that are higher up in my DMS about private things. I just needed it wiped. So I cold,
literally wiped all of my mass followers and the whole thing.
And then they're like, oh my God, no, you have to, you got to at least have Instagram
because I'm going to the conference in May. So you have to have Instagram. I said, okay.
Then I brought it up to my, my, my husband has a bunch of really smart friends. And so I
mentioned it to one of them who's super well connected. And he just so happened to be sitting next to at Earth Cafe on Melrose in L.A., sitting next to like the OnlyFans executive person who handles really big accounts.
And apparently he overheard the because Earth Cafe is super tight niche.
So you can hear everything everyone's talking about.
And so they were all just shooting the shit next to each other table.
And he literally heard her say, okay, so you're working three hours making 300k a month. And,
and he brought that to my attention. I'm like, what do you mean? He's like, yeah, she she goes,
she shoots the videos, they repurpose everything with AI. And lo and behold, you know, she makes 300k a month working for OnlyFans. And so I don't
know her content or what she was doing, if it was risque or what have you. But he's like, well,
I have her info. So I know, obviously, I'm going to connect you guys because she should know you.
And I was like, and then it all just came together. So all to say is never knock,
I was like, and then it all just came together.
So all to say is never knock because there is some opportunity somewhere.
I've not tested it yet.
I will and let you all know.
Good freaking luck, man.
For real.
No, thank you.
Seriously.
Ingenuity is awesome.
Yeah, because you weren't here because I just want to let you know, Israel, I just liquidated everything.
And I'm about to reopen my second now location after I got looted and all the losses I had in LA. And I'm just going full blown in and
reinventing and recreating my, my businesses and kind of putting them together. If you go back,
you'll listen to some beautiful things in the first half of the conversation. And so this is me stepping, again, going back to the
conversation about risk. I think for me as an action taker and also having parents who I saw
fall to the ground and get back on their feet and try and test different things out growing up,
just being through war and having to leave in 24 hours with no money and
nothing in your bank account, because if you wouldn't leave, you'd be executed. And all of
that stuff, which is literally happening to my people in Iran right now. You know, I've been
through that already. I've already seen all the times that I've gone through Rodney King's, I've
gone through businesses, our businesses catching on fire during Rodney King. I've gone through Rodney King's. I've gone through businesses. Our business is catching on fire during Rodney King. I've already been through the BLM protests. I've physically experienced that
again. So I'm resilient and so should you be. Don't ever let anyone dim your light. And the
best person to invest is in yourself and your dreams and what you're doing for the betterment
of humanity. If you've got all of that in alignment,
like the doors are going to swing open. They always do. Sure, there could be like maybe the
space you wanted, the first space I wanted in LA didn't work out because I was meant to be
in Santa Monica on 7th and Broadway, you know, because that was the space. So sure, yeah, I cried
over that first space, but then I killed it in that 3,000 square
foot facility. And so invest in yourself always, but of course diversify and do all the things.
But someone like me, I'm a risk taker. I will invest in myself and my dream of taking care of
people. I have through food for 39 years. I will through healing. And now I'm going to just combine it all and bring it together. And also one last thing. So I moved out of LA after 44 years due to a meditation
telling me to leave. And that happened to a lot of people around me within my ecosystem.
So if you are also called to leave or start something new, just remember that no matter what it is that you are positioning yourself in,
just like Bridget said beautifully early on at the beginning, like your guides are always there
constantly. Ask during your meditation. Ask your body. Your body's a pendulum. You leaning forward,
getting yes answers. You leaning backward, getting no answers, you not moving at all forward or
backward. It's a maybe, but you have to be hydrated. You must ask the first question,
am I hydrated to ask my body, my higher self, yes, no questions. And so, and if you're not,
use a pendulum and you can program the pendulum, put your elbow on a solid table and ask and connect with your own higher self to get
those answers. So invest in yourselves. I always suggest that you do, but have like a fun plan and
make it fun. Have fun creating. We're like little kids. And, you know, early on Mel said, she was
talking about older people and I, and I loved her older story with, on, Mel said she was talking about older people. And I loved her older story with someone she was taking care of in her last few episodes.
What beautiful story that was.
And then also about kids.
Kids just speak their truth and whatever's on their heart.
And older people have the wisdom to speak about their experiences of what they've gone through in 80, 90 years.
So never stop talking to kids,
never stop connecting with older people, because that combination brings you balance into where
you are, and you know, what you want to do and bring into the world. And I don't know, for me,
it's always about being of service. So it makes my heart just tickle and feel good. And me seeing a smile on your face,
you know, coming to my beautiful space that's activated, listening to Mel and my daughter
perform like, hello, that would make like me cry over and over. And by the way, get used to it. I
cry a lot when I'm holding space and it's a known fact about me. And it is what it is. But I love that. And find your love,
find your fun, find your creativity and invest in yourself. Even if like me, you just feel like
four days ago, just deciding, fuck it, I'm liquidating this shit. I'm out. I'm out. Let's
go. It's time. It's go time. So thank you. Hawk, thank you.
Yeah, hang out up here.
I just want to go to my girl, Sarah Beth, in the house.
But thank you so much, Hawk.
That was awesome.
It was awesome, Hawk.
It was so good.
Yeah.
And hi, Sarah.
Hi, guys. Sarah, what information do you bring us from UFO World?
Oh, good grief.
Really straight into it.
Hawk, that was such an awesome share.
Like seriously, I say that all the time. And like when I go to parties, like adult parties,
I always am hanging out with the kids. I'm hanging out with the old people. Like I just,
I don't care. I don't drink. I'd rather like, you know, burn one down and go and have a conversation with the littles. You what i mean but like that was great share i just wanted to say and hi guys i've missed you um
coming up for a little bit of air from ufo world it is intense it is crazy apparently trump's
getting his disclosure speech prepared um you know spielberg's dropping the movie disclosure day
which is like super exciting uh i went and saw Zootopia with my kid and my daughter.
And even that like has all kinds of underlying themes in it.
Like literally the city was built on top of the stolen reptilian city.
And they lied and said that the reptilians were evil and that they really weren't.
And like, in fact, they stole the reptilians technology from them.
And like, and that was like how the city was made. And everybody could live in the city together and have their own separate climates.
The snakes created the weather walls.
Anyway, sorry.
Spoiler alert.
But yeah, no.
I'm totally going to watch it now.
What is it?
Zootopia.
Zootopia 2.
Yeah.
So family friendly.
And there was another there's other good movies coming out.
Age of Disclosure was a freaking sigh up.
I'm excited for Disclosure Day because Spielberg did, you know,
Close Encounters with Third Kind and just there's, I don't know, man.
I'm excited.
And with this-
Star Wars. Yeah, you know what I mean? Like there's just, yeah't know, man, I'm excited. And with this Star Wars.
Yeah, you know what I mean?
Like there's just, yeah, it's going to be exciting.
And I think it's really interesting.
There's a lot of like people that we're finding out the hardcore real truth about, you know, because of this most recent dump.
And it's just kind of, I'm loving it because Bridget knows exactly what I'm talking about.
And it's just like, I fucking knew it. Like I knew it. Like I fucking knew it like I knew it like I knew I didn't like that guy I knew I didn't
like that guy I knew I didn't like that guy like it's it's literally like fuck you fuck you fuck
you you're cool fuck you like you know what I mean um so that's interesting. But literally it is. I think it's so super hardcore connected to UFO world.
And like the reverse engineering, the physics, all of it.
It's crazy.
It's pretty freaking crazy.
Yeah, the UFO world, even disclosure itself is all to mess with the scientists,
to make sure the scientists don't come together
and discover free energy.
That's what it is.
It's one giant psyop that nobody will understand.
The world leaders, they don't give a shit about ATs or anything of that nature.
They know what this reality is.
What they do care about and must care about is the fact that free energy is a simple formula to solve. It's
been solved before. And if the scientists come and get it and come together, and if they weren't
so stupid that the dumbest people on earth, the scientists, the doctors and the scientists are
the dumbest people on earth. You heard it here. And these guys, if they came together, they solve
free energy. The global power structures, they collapse.
And they're not going to let that happen.
It's why they called Charlie Kirk, because Charlie Kirk was telling everybody the truth.
You go, you pay all of this debt for college to be weaponized and brainwashed.
And literally it's like a religion, the Ivy, like the physics and the math, because it's all wrong.
And it's like a religion.
It's really interesting. I think we're going to find out a lot of truth about what really happened in America's history here in these last 80 years. I mean, we've been hearing Trump say it. They've been saying that we have the technology to, you know, move space and time.
Like, it's just they talk about jump rooms and portals.
So AJ is absolutely right.
Like, it's all about free energy.
They don't want the dollar and the petrol frickin oil economy to collapse.
Like, even though, you know, let's,
we could clean our planet. Like we could end disease. Like,
yeah, it's going to be great. So I'm excited.
You know, and I tell people all the time, I believe that I have this being nothing but a
simulation where every second
the physics of this reality could change. Every second we change, every second everything changes.
And you could almost see that it's a simulation because they can't tell if the earth is flat.
We experience the earth is flat. However, we see it as round and we see the moon as round.
See, the roundness of an object is a conservation tactic.
For example, the reason why you can't see China from where you're standing because the
earth is flat is because it would take too much computation power to see all that.
So physical reality limits that sight by curving the sphere.
However, we experience it on a flat plane, but it's a curved sphere so we could conserve.
It's always showing conservation.
That is genius.
I don't know, AJ.
I see her as thick around the middle.
That's what Mella and I decided we're calling her, right, Mella?
Thick?
She's thick.
Yeah, she's thick.
Yeah, you know, something to grab onto.
No, I'm just joking.
And we just entered the blue room after that.
Oh, my goodness.
I had to.
I couldn't help it.
I love this.
There's so many wonderful points that have been brought up tonight. My question, something came to mind when somebody was talking about risk tolerance. And I started thinking about like how a lot of the decisions we make are fear based decisions.
take risks or invest in ourselves appropriately to meet our goals is because we are operating
in survival mode, right?
Like operating from a level of just trying to get through to like to survive rather than
to, I guess, thrive, you know, I guess that would be the opposite.
So I'm curious if anybody has any like experiences or insight into
that. You know, how does someone move from being a fear-based decision maker to a, I don't know,
whatever the opposite is for you. Some people I would say are more logic-based decision makers.
Some people are excitement-based decision makers. Maybe you're a combination of the
two. Maybe you avoid decisions altogether because you are afraid of making decisions.
Right? So like, I don't know, let's chat about it. Let's go to some hands. I want to hear from
Sophia. Do you have anything you could add to that?
Oh, sorry. Hello, everyone.
Sophia? Okay, I was initially raising my hands up after Hulk finished talking because I wanted
to ask a question. But contributing to how to change from risk-based to more logic is I think it's about assessment.
Before you make a decision, before you think,
you have to ask yourself,
am I using logic in this particular emotion?
You need to ask yourself a question
before you can make the decision.
Yeah, that's what I that's what I think I will use my hand
initially to ask a question so maybe I will wait then when we are done answering her question I
cannot ask my own question. Sure yeah if anybody wants to jump in on decision making, if anybody has any experiences, yeah, I don't know.
It just popped into my mind because it's hard to make those decisions, like those big decisions.
Do I move? Do I stay where I am? Do I pull out investments? Do I reallocate those investments into something else? Like, those are all big decisions, right? And I feel like in order to make those decisions safely, how does someone get there? How does someone make big decisions without like operating from a place of fear?
That's an artwork.
That's artwork.
Sometimes that takes a little bit of leaping to, in my opinion, for myself anyway.
When I talk to you guys, I'm not like talking to you as this.
I'm actually just talking to myself basically, which means that like the questions you ask,
I'm like, I don't know if that makes sense.
But I noticed that whenever I took the certain actions, whenever I like would make these
like heart centered decisions, it always worked out.
It was like basically stripping everything out and making like the most correct decision
I can make from like the heart.
That's when things worked out all the time.
Anywhere else it was hit or miss.
What about you guys?
I would say when my nervous system is soothed and I'm not like this last year
was one of my hardest years ever.
And I've had some intense things in my life.
And I will say the year before that was really hard for me too.
And for the first time in my life, even though I've been in some crazy situations when I was
younger, I was such a wild ass back then. I will say for the first time in my life,
I was in, I felt like I was in survival mode. And spiritual stuff, mental and emotional stuff,
were affecting my physical. And it was the first time I've ever really encountered that
to the degree that I have. And because I was also in, like, not with my husband,
he's amazing, by the way, you guys, but I was in some situations
where there was, uh, emotional abuse happening and verbal, um, anything that brought up
a memory of that for the year after this last year, my whole nervous system, like everything
would, would, um, like, it just, it just felt like it was on edge. Everything was on edge.
And so I've spent a lot of months now really just focusing on reminding myself that I'm safe and my safety comes from within me.
And then also, anytime I feel that start to up well, because you can feel it when your nervous system is starting to have a snap, crackle, pop kind of moment.
And when I would feel it, anytime I feel it, even now, I just had one, a little something
earlier today where I'll drop in and I'll just start supporting myself and breathing.
And everybody does it in their own way.
And I think there's probably a million ways that you can research online.
For me, I touch my heart
and my higher heart. I start to breathe. I bring myself into my, like put my attention and focus
on my actual heart space. And then I more soothe the emotional and then work into the mental if
needed. But for me, it's been more feeling that moves into the emotion,
like feeling in the body that moves into the emotion. And I find when my nervous system is
soothed, I'm pretty adventurous, right? I'm an adventurous girl. I also exercise caution with
certain things. I did not have that when I was younger, but I taught myself that, right?
It's one thing to be adventurous.
It's another thing to be completely cavalier in a way that upends my life, right?
Which I've done before.
When I was younger, I was like, oh, this looks like fun.
And then just rearranged my whole life in that one moment, right?
So these experiences have taught me to
have forethought about things. But I feel like when your body is in a good condition,
and I don't necessarily mean weight, though that can be beneficial. I mean like your nervous system
is soothed. You're fully hydrated. You're getting the minerals that you need. You are connected to your cells.
Your consciousness is actually in your body, not floating above, right?
Or standing next to you kind of thing.
I feel like when that happens, then the inspiration is clearer.
The decisions are faster and easier.
Paying attention to the discernment and intuition
for me helps with all of that. And I really feel like, you guys, I'm in a feeler mode tonight. So
you're going to hear feel. I think I was last night too. So Pura, was I in a feel mood? Did I
say feel like 300 times when I was sharing? So you're going to hear me say that. Yeah, I did.
That's my friend Pura, by the way, you guys, give him a follow. Say hi to him.
So anyway, for me, if I'm in survival.
Wait, Bridge, who's that?
Which one's your friend?
Pure.
Pure with the two stars next to his name.
So for me, whenever I, when I'm more embodied and I'm really focusing on my nervous system and I'm not in
fight or flight survival mode with the smallest little thing that comes up, that's when all the
decisions that I'm making in my reality, I have more forethought. I have more organization to
how I'm approaching it. I'm not working with a full on foggy brain because my body has been
supported as well. Right.
And,
yeah, I feel like those are the things that helped me with what I asked.
And that was a really long answer.
So thank you for,
thank you for being patient with me.
Israel's over there.
Bridget,
your three minutes was up like 10 minutes ago.
It's true though.
I love everything you said because it's like,
if your nervous system is in survival
mode your decision making decision making is going to be acting accordingly right so i think that's
true at least i i agree um and then also that's kind of it kind of brings me to something else I wanted to talk about, which is self-trust and how over time, the more decisions, more big decisions you make.
I guess those outcomes will eventually build or break down your trust for yourself.
self. So if you are making decisions from a place of like being dysregulated emotionally,
and then those decisions lead you down a bad path, then all of a sudden you've created this
negative environment for trusting yourself because you're like, well, you know, those
there's sayings that we sometimes say to ourselves when we feel this way.
We're like, oh, but I always fuck shit up.
Or I always, that never works out for me, you know?
Maybe that's because we've positioned ourselves in that way.
We haven't built self-trust.
So for me personally, over time, the more big decisions I make and the more it works out in my favor, the more risk I'm willing to take.
Because I know historically I've always figured it out.
And I've always gotten through it, right?
Oh my god, Mellie, you're speaking to my heart.
That's exactly what I had to, because I have trusted myself and I still do, right?
With so much and been through so much and always came out ahead, right?
The last two years felt very unsafe, very unstable in my reality, right?
And I had to go within. This is what we talk about inner work,
go within. Just because these things were happening in repetition for two years doesn't
mean that I can't trust myself and I can't trust the decisions or the people that I'm around.
Everybody's doing the best that we can with the tools that we have.
I have a lot of tools. So I've been moving into those tools, going back to basic, basic basics,
like nervous system support, right? That's one thing that you will figure out if you start doing
your own healing work is support your body while you're supporting yourself emotionally and
mentally. And dysregulation is the word I was looking for and could not catch. So thank you for using that over and over,
because I feel like that's where, that's, if we're, if we're working from survival mode,
our decisions are not going to be something that supports us long-term. It's all about what,
something that supports us long term. It's all about what, what am I avoiding in the now?
You know, like, what situation? It's like, I'm reactionary, very, very much reactionary, right?
Yeah, even I think even one of the best examples that come to mind, sorry to cut you off,
I don't want to forget this. One of the best examples that comes to mind is, you know,
when you're really hungry, nobody should talk to you, right? Like, you know, when you're really hungry nobody should talk to you right like you know
when you're like fuck I'm on the verge of anger like I'm gonna punch somebody in the face if I
don't eat soon that's like survival mode right so your decision making when you're hungry it's
actually like it's it's proven like you should not make decisions while you're hungry because you are in a survival mindset.
You're dysregulated, really.
It's the same thing.
If your nervous system is dysregulated because you don't feel emotionally safe, let's say you're in a bad relationship, your bucket is full.
safe, let's say you're in a bad relationship, you are, you know, your bucket is full, there's,
there's not much else that you can put into the bucket before it starts to overflow,
and your emotions get in the way. If you're in that place, and you have big decisions to make,
it might be a good idea to start like, sifting through some of those things that are in your
bucket and figuring out which ones can be controlled and which ones can't and then
trying to get a hold of the ones that you can't actually take control of.
I use the bucket analogy a lot because I used to teach an anger management program and a victim
impact program at a halfway house with federal parolees and I used the bucket the analogy often
with them because they they really related to it. It's basically like there are
things in your life that you can control and there are things in your life that you can't control.
All of those things accumulate. And let's say you could visualize your emotional capacity
as a bucket. And each little thing that you place in the bucket it starts to fill up and if your
bucket is always you know almost full and you don't have any room for for other things to get
dumped on you then your risk tolerance is going to be low you're not going to be a person that takes risks in your favor or out of
your favor, whatever it is. Maybe you end up taking really stupid risks because you're emotionally
unstable. But you know what I mean? Like if you're, if you are operating from a level of
survival mode and, you know know emotional dysregulation it's it's more likely that
you're you're going to take less um less risks less likely to to bet on yourself in my opinion
um let's go to israel and then we'll go to maybe uh we'll go to i don't see many hands um i think
my app is glitching but i think i saw haw Hawk's hand go up and maybe Sophia's hand earlier.
So we'll go to Israel.
Yeah, Mella, if you don't mind.
They were before me and I did see a third one.
I do not know who it was.
Okay.
Yeah, whoever was first.
My app's glitching on me, so I don't see any hands anymore.
I can go after whoever and I'll go after you.
Go ahead.
Yeah, Sophia, you want to go?
Yes, I just, yeah, yeah.
I remember something,
so I wanted to add to what the risk stuff.
While making decisions,
I think you can program your mind to be able to think
logically you know you can you know it's something that you can learn let me say by playing games by
imagining the scenario before it happens something like that you can make your mind see it before the
actual situation happens so when that time comes your brain already knows that let me say this
particular response is similar to what has happened before so it already knows the actual
something to do because in decision making it's not about making the right decision it's about how fast you can make the
decision because i notice that sometimes when i make a decision yeah sometimes i might be wrong
but after making decisions when i go back to think about my action it will not be like it's
not be the ideal response to give the ideal decision to make at that time so i'll be like regretting and stuff but
me doing that thing we already programmed my mind so that next time when i see that kind of decision
when i see that kind of pattern again i will be able to you know make that right decision i wanted
to make make that logical decision i wanted to make instead of moving with emotions and and stuff
so let me just ask my own question so that's when you know can be contribution the space will be
flowing i want to ask if you have made let's say money before then you reduce it to like zero dollars
but you know you have practiced all these things before
investments all this stuff and you know you have made yourself you have invested in yourself
you're a spiritual person you have been doing the right things but then something happened
and you reduce to like just lowest does it mean that's like does it mean that you're a failure or is there an actual lesson that you have learned in
all those years or like like i'm not i'm not asking for motivation no like yeah you have to
stand up if you don't stand up i don't know you have to stand up but i'm asking does it mean that
you're a failure and by research i found out that this particular thing happened to many people
i'm asking it doesn't mean that you're a failure.
Why does it happen?
And what should you do in this situation?
Something like that.
Thank you, Sophia.
Very nice to meet you.
It is very nice to meet you.
Thank you for coming through appreciate it um
i'm just i'm like i feel like playing piano so i'm like sitting here playing piano as you guys
talk it's like a soundtrack to you guys speaking it's lovely it's really really pretty to be honest
it's such a good conversation for the vibe. Um, yeah, something
just came to mind too. It's like sometimes the, the move is subtraction, not addition,
right? Like sometimes it's about removing noise and like creating space for something different.
and like creating space for something different.
And that's what just came to mind.
So I figured I'd share that.
Let's go to Hawk and then Israel.
Wow, I just love it when you play.
I don't know, the guitar is just so special.
I just wanted to share about what you were sharing earlier about how do people, how can they, you know, be more risk takers about, I think, baby steps and start with, you know, small little acts for yourself.
If there was something you were challenged with, try that first.
And then as you start growing your muscle it's just like that
you just strengthen it and as you start believing in yourself and seeing like okay I'm well over 50
I've had my guitar for like the last 20 plus years and I really feel like this moment in time and my voice, I used to sing a lot too. So my voice and this moment is my right divine timing to step into that, even though this instrument has been literally sitting at my home for all these years, right?
Yeah, sure. My pinky finger, the wedding finger, was always kind of very difficult. And I always
kind of always blamed it like, oh, it's not strong enough. Like, I can't, you know, grab those chords.
It's really hard. And I used to come up with a thousand and one excuses and then just have other
people play my guitar whenever I used to DJ and people used to come over and we used to have fun.
my guitar whenever I used to DJ and people used to come over and we used to have fun.
And now it's like, yeah, you saw me. I'm taking all these risks, but I also have all these other
areas where I kind of beat myself up a little bit or talk down to myself and just, or kind of not.
But just try, try your best with just little small acts to strengthen that.
And then as you strengthen those, I think you'll step into your power of taking bigger risks and bigger action risks.
And listen, at the end of the day, I took a huge risk opening up that healing center where I had to call it a yoga space because nobody really understood what I, what I
had done there until they came to experience it. Right. And that was, it was a really huge
investment financially. And I lost huge because I didn't, um, I didn't protect myself with insurance
on retail. Had I had retail insurance, $500,000, I would have been fine. But I didn't because I
didn't really think I needed it in Santa Monica when you fart and the police show up just like,
you know, why'd you fart so loud? So at the end of the day, those heavy losses, even if you might,
I never said to myself, like, I should have never done that because of all the things that came out of it and all the incredible things that come out of when you take action.
It's all about you experiencing stuff and just making your experiences stronger so that the next one will be better.
That's why I could literally, with my eyes closed, build this center up.
leave with my eyes closed, build this center up. I already know all the, I know like this time,
I'm going to make sure the tenant before me permitted everything properly so that doesn't
fall on my shoulders. And I had to pay $12,000 a month rent for the first six months and not be open
because other people were irresponsible and that all landed on my shoulders. You know what I mean?
So there's a lot of lessons that are hard, painful lessons that you will learn, but the rewards and the connections and the people
and the lives that are touched because your soul and seed took action on something that you believed
in to make other people happy.
It's like life changing.
And it doesn't matter how much I lost.
I don't care that that was a half a million dollars,
which was my savings that I had saved,
like literally since I was little to put into this.
And it was poof, gone.
And literally 10 hours of looting, gone overnight.
Bye, you know?
And then how people treat you and who showed up the next day.
People drove an hour because they saw what happened on my Instagram because I was literally in real time showing them
that they were breaking my windows and coming in, you know?
So at the end of the...
And you know what else?
I wrote a post to all my looters four days later after I came out of that dark passage. I wrote a post to my looters
explaining that all of the crystals that they just stole, that this is how they needed to clear the
energy because they had absorbed all of the energies of the people that were coming there
to release them. And I didn't even want them to have that dark energy. And even though I cleared
my space on a regular basis, but it was an active space that was constantly happening. And so again,
showing up for people who I've witnessed in real person and then at home what was happening to my space,
you know, and four days later for me to show up and say, hey, if you're the looter that
did this to my space, here's what you need to do. If you have one of my pieces, if you have my
instruments, if you have my bowls, this is what you need to do. But I'll do it for you anyway. But you have to
kind of, I had to forgive and move on in a sense, because it was the only thing that would help me
to just let that go. And there's many reasons as to why that space was taken from me in that manner,
because I'd signed an eight-year lease.
I wasn't planning on going anywhere.
But it was just a test, you see.
The guys were just testing me,
just to make sure I had what it took
to do what I was told to come back to do on this timeline.
And so there's many messages,
and if you sit down with yourself in your grief
after you're out of fight and flight and listen, there's many messages.
Just like the beautiful squirrel who had rabies on one of my VIP sound baths and pissed all over my bowls while I was doing my meditation for about 30 people.
That squirrel showed me that the distributor I was working with was telling me incorrect
things about those instruments because when I came to wipe them, the paint came off and
I was told they were crystals and they weren't.
There's always reasons as to things that happen.
So start with the little things and test yourself and get yourself strong with little bits like
pick up an instrument like I did, or go to a meditation,
or maybe you haven't exercised in a long time.
Maybe you haven't gotten grounded ever.
Maybe you didn't go by a body of water by yourself.
Just doing those on a regular basis and seeing what signs show up for you.
That's a great place to start. Thank you.
I agree. Get out in the sun a little bit, take a walk. That's what I do. Really could,
that's it. A little bit of nature. A vacation is everything. Like you take a nice vacation,
God forbid it's like in a beautiful place. That clears everything. God forbid you go to like
Greece, you open up codes from ancient Greece.
I really do believe that our bodies, our genes,
I do think they take direction from the environment.
So when you go see the pyramids, it opens up codes.
People who go to Egypt always say that.
Some of them come back as like channelers.
You go to ancient Greece,
you come back with ancient knowledge.
Perhaps you remember the terrain,
your ancient bloodline remember the terrain.
I don't know.
What a strange world we live in.
And as science advances, we start to realize how fake science was.
And it allows new science to like creep up.
And now we get to rebuild this brand new world.
It sure as hell to me.
I believe we're in heaven.
I don't think this is physical reality.
I think this is just a dream in heaven. And I think we're getting there. As time goes by,
we're going to realize we can manipulate this reality just with thought alone. And I think
that's the case. What do you think, Israel, bounced? Is it it? Come back up. Oh no, we lost Israel.
Is it? Come back up.
Oh, no, we lost it.
I mean, I'll take this moment to remind everybody that if you enjoy the Bloom Room, there is a Bloom Room on school.
I started the community over there to, I guess, kind of just have a place to continue the conversation and continue the objective of just kind of not feeling alone in the journeys that we're on.
It's very easy to just kind of to feel like you're you're lonesome in this world of like
chasing whatever your version of a dream is. It can feel very lonesome and sometimes it's nice to have people to bounce ideas off of.
And I'm using the school community as that place.
I'm also using it to write prompts.
So far I'm doing Monday prompts.
So Monday morning I'm posting a prompt, a writing prompt.
prompt, a writing prompt, so you can kind of set the tone for your week and it's
So you can kind of set the tone for your week.
often going to relate back to what we spoke about in the previous space. So on
Monday morning you can look forward to a writing prompt. I don't really have like
a specific time of day that I posted but it is in the morning. But yeah if you
want to join the Bloom Room on School, it's free to join.
You just have to go to the link in my bio and click that and there's this nice little
button there and it's jiggling so you can't miss it.
It's wiggly.
And you just click that and then you sign up and like I said, it is free.
So if anybody would like to join up, that would be awesome.
And please be active in there.
Go answer the prompts.
Get involved.
It's not a community unless you're active in it.
Otherwise, I'm just talking to myself, and it's just awkward.
So I would love that.
Anyways, how's everybody feeling?
I feel like we need to get Israel back. He had to wait a long time. I know. I feel bad.
We love you, Israel.
what's up crypto in my veins thanks for coming through
what's up crypto what's going down well crypto's going down that's what's going down
that's just a great buying opportunity and no sweat here i'm uh i'm buying some yeah i uh i've been uh stacking
my chips for a few years that you know we can just quickly talk about dollar cost averaging
a lot of people do it weekly i do it when i see opportunity i call it opportunity averaging, you know, um, it's a form of dollar cost averaging,
but only when I see really opportunistic moments, you know, like this. So, you know,
that's just a good, good way to think about that part of life and investing in yourself,
you know, um, What I want to talk about
is education. I don't know how much you guys
have talked about that, but
self-education is
everywhere, guys.
And most people just don't
take advantage of it.
It's absolutely everywhere.
It's all over social media.
I really like
YouTube for a lot of it because you can find some of the smartest people about any topic and just listen to what they have to say.
Surround yourself with these kind of people and anything you're interested in and you can grow.
It's out there.
I'm going to I'm going to write a book about the YouTube algorithm.
And it's going to be called the YouTube algorithm millionaire it's gonna be about me and
you know my journey started about 12 years ago started educating myself and
education is one of the most powerful tools in investing in yourself and like
I said most people don't take advantage of it.
It's just out there. You just have to reach out for it. Like when I was talking about writing a
book, I started with, you know, what kind of investing is there? What's the most lucrative
kind of investing? What's your biggest bang for your buck? All these different things.
And I just kept engulfing in it and absorbing all this information.
And I accidentally found OpenAI a little over 10 years ago now, I think it was.
I can't believe they haven't IPO'd yet.
But I got involved with that.
It's one of my very first investments ever that's super awesome but you know like I said it's just out there the information
is out there you have to search it out if you want to learn about investing in
yourself you got to learn about investing in general and get on YouTube start learning about chart patterns it's one of the first things you got to learn about investing in general and get get on youtube start learning about chart
patterns it's one of the first things you need to learn learn how to read a chart uh there's
there's some key chart patterns out there that are very good opportunities if you understand them
but you gotta educate yourself you guys just just get out there. Anything that you're passionate about,
figure out what you're passionate about, what drives you, what you're really interested in,
and search the hell out of it. Absorb all the information you can about it.
And just go for it. Go for your dreams. Life is too short to not go for what you love to do and shoot for your dreams.
It's so true.
You owe it to yourself, don't you?
To go for whatever it is that you love to do.
There's only so much time to do it.
You might as well.
Yeah, we really do owe it to ourselves.
We sacrifice a lot in life. I know I have, I'm a single dad and I did a little extra sacrifice for that, I think. But, you know, we, we, we work your ass off your whole life and not really get
anywhere. If you're not educated about money and how to spend it and how not to spend it
and things like that, you've got to educate yourself. Otherwise, all your hard work,
you know, is just for today. And we need to think about tomorrow and our future, our kids' future, our family's future.
Think much bigger.
You know, a lot of people are thinking so small.
We can be so much more in life, but you've got to think bigger and understand that many things are very possible if you just really push yourself.
It's so true. It's so true.
So, so true.
And you never know unless you actually try.
AJ just posted in the school community, the Bloom Room school community.
So if anybody would like to go see what AJ posted, go on in.
Click the link in the bio.
It's free. Don't worry. Um, but yeah,
AJ, I love that idea. I'm responding now. Super cool. Um, sweet. Did we get Israel back or no?
No, we didn't. He's busy. He's too busy for us. That's okay. Um, so I feel like we need a reset do you guys want music should I play a song
always yeah and then Lolo has her hand up oh cool I can't see any hands this is lovely
no the app is on another level it's glitches everywhere it is ridiculous I see hands they
drop you got to reset.
Go up and down with the screen.
Yeah.
I'm sorry, Bridget.
Oh, I was going to say, Israel, come back up when you can, please.
Please, please, please.
We love you.
Let's go to Lolo.
Bye.
And then I'll start the song.
And so I'm really nervous.
I haven't spoken any of these spaces ever.
But I wanted to.
Welcome.
Mela, right?
Yep.
Yep.
Mela B.
What's up?
Thanks for coming through.
Hey, girl.
Hey.
I'm kind of new here to your group as well, but I really enjoyed you in your space.
So I kind of wanted to touch base on what was before crypto was speaking.
I think it was the guy is with the flag and how this may be heaven, right?
Am I wrong?
Maybe I misunderstood.
Yeah.
What do you think about that?
I think that we're living in hell.
I literally think everything is a challenge that we have to overcome, right? And it either makes us
a way better person or a worse person, depending on what kind of person you are.
What are your thoughts on that? Well, again, for me personally, I think
it is hell for people. And when people see this as hell, I actually feel better because I don't really see this
as hell.
I see, you know, I really, I've studied history so greatly.
I tell you guys about this, like every other year in history has been way, way, way worse
than this.
Maybe that kind of like manipulated my mind to think like it could be really, really worse.
And that's what I think, like things could be really really worse okay and and that's what i think like things could be really worse but they're not like we really got oxygen to breathe though
right not necessarily because let me ask you a question financially everybody struggles everybody
has blocks but lola let me say this let's say i was to give you a billion dollars but you would
have to give me your eyesight would Would you do it? No.
So then you must be a billionaire. You understand we've been programmed to look at every other thing that we want. However, we have everything that we need. How much would you pay for your eyesight?
Billions. How much would you pay for oxygen? Trillions. All that stuff is for free. Everything
to have a physical reality experience is for free. It's just they program us
to live this material life and you feel the lack. However, that's the programming. You break that
programming, you find out that you're more abundant than billionaires. And then when you
really look into things, you find out that this is Satan's world. And Satan traps certain people
and turns them into workers.
He traps them like the pedophiles, takes the pedophiles and puts them in positions of power.
These people are not in a good position.
They become slaves to the system.
They become the hall monitors.
And that's the worst job in the world.
But we are free.
And that's the programming too.
So Satan traps all the people
looking for power. He'll provide it, but he'll trap the Trumps. He'll trap the Elons. He'll trap
everybody in the satanic system. And so this is a form of heaven. They're trapped in their own
satanic world. We're not. Yeah. Thank you for breaking that down to me. I feel better about what you were saying now.
Very much so. I don't know. I kind of come from a place like this world is just so awful and evil, but there's also so much beauty in it as well.
sometimes it does feel like, like we're living on a realm that is this really hell and we just
got to be, you know, do our best to make it through what we can as good people. Cause there's
not a lot of good people around at all. Um, I don't know, you know, I don't know. I'm in like
a new thought process. I'm kind of transitioning
into a new thought process, especially since joining X lately and hearing all of you people
and amazing people like Sentain. How do you, I'm sorry. I, excuse me for my, um,
my speech. I had suffered a stroke a long time ago and it messed with my speech, but,
uh, nevertheless, like Santino, I love him. Adore him. Maze, she's awesome. Mela,
I just kind of got to be here through, um, Maze and some other women that I look up to as well.
and some other women that I look up to as well.
But it kind of intrigued me,
the talk about,
is this hell?
Is this heaven?
But you kind of presented it in a way
that I wasn't thinking of.
So I appreciate that.
Makes me feel a lot better about it.
I could be wrong.. So I appreciate that. Makes me feel a lot better about it. I could be wrong.
We could be in hell.
I'm just trying to look at the process.
If I'm there, I can't do nothing about it.
So I might as well delude myself as much as I can
and see the magic.
But you know what?
I delude myself and I look for the magic
and I see the magic.
And it took me many years of not realizing
that it was possible that magic exists. took me many years of not realizing that it was
possible that magic exists but now I kind of know it does and it makes this world very magical and
the fact the fact that we get to see evil and bad and shit that even makes the good that much
better you know so it's weird it's a very selfish but it's very strange strange concept. Yeah, no, you're right.
Thank you for speaking with me.
I feel better about it.
So we're not in hell, you see?
Also, I'm like super shy and can't believe I'm speaking.
Thank you for coming up.
Thanks for coming up to speak.
I know it can be nerve-wracking, especially in a space full of, you know,
maybe there's people you don't know, you've never talked to before.
It's hard to just come up and speak.
It's just stage fright for me.
It's all good.
That's all it is, stage fright.
Yeah.
No, that's good. Maybe I'll get more comfortable.
Yeah, for sure.
It's, you know, ripping the bandaid off is the hardest part.
And then once it's off, hopefully the ice is broken and yeah, hopefully you'll stick around,
continue to be a part of the conversation. Appreciate your music, by the way. I heard
you the other night and it's beautiful. Thank you.
Thank you guys for listening to my bullshit.
I'm going to leave now.
Oh, don't leave, Lola.
Don't leave. I know.
Lola, when I started on Clubhouse
years ago, right,
the first space I spoke in, my voice
was cracking and shaking.
I had tears pouring out of my eyes because I was
so afraid of public speaking. A year later, I started public speaking events just from
getting comfortable doing it on that app. So press through the anxiety, soothe your nervous system,
right? I know you feel like you want to run away right now, but just remember to soothe your nervous system.
You're okay.
You did great.
Your points were awesome.
So, and I'm really glad you're here with us tonight.
And yeah, just practice.
Thank you, Bridget.
You're welcome.
This is something I've been going back and forth with for many months now especially since
the kirk stuff are we actually living in hell like is this hell is this like just a testing
experience for us all no impossible you the sun that sun comes out every day
lolo you know what i mean that's that sun comes out every day regardless of how everybody feels
it never lets you down.
Then you got this nightlight in the sky you call the moon.
You know, then we have these beautiful beaches all around.
You have beautiful people everywhere.
This app will make it feel like there's hell out there because we're getting beamed with all the shit.
But God forbid you flip the algorithms and you got beamed with all the goodness.
You'll see somebody walk an old lady across the street.
You'll see somebody save somebody's life.
You'll see so many beautiful things.
So it's just, you know, this app will do it to you too.
Yeah, what you focus on expands, right?
That's how I see it.
So like the possibilities are endless.
Like it's infinite possibilities
every single time you wake up, right?
And I think about, I don't know, ever since I kind of got into quantum theory and all that kind of stuff, I think about things so differently. Basically, it's them just sending electrons through these two slits.
And without an observer, without a camera on the atoms, they hit a wall behind the double slit that they're moving through.
They hit the wall behind it randomly.
It's all random.
Everything lands randomly. It's scattered. It's like waves of just randomness. But then as soon
as an observer, a camera set up by the experiment, the scientists, as soon as they set up a camera
to observe those atoms and electrons and how they move, then all of a sudden they create a pattern
on the wall behind the double slit so to me that tells me that if if if everything breaks down to
atoms everything from you know this keyboard that's sitting in front of me right now, to, you know, the food that I'm
eating, my being, myself, I break down at my core, I am just a bunch of random atoms formed together,
then I have to be the observer, and I get to decide how I perceive reality by being the observer.
And I get to decide how I perceive reality by being the observer.
Because the possibilities are endless.
It's limitless.
I could wake up and decide that I'm going to, and it kind of brings us back to the topic of the room, investing in yourself, decision making, right?
Like your decisions will determine the outcomes that you get to perceive.
Very much true. Another good point right so it's interesting
it's interesting you get to decide how you view the view the world so if you want to decide that
we are living in heaven and this is beautiful and everything is peaches rainbows and butterflies
you get to make that conscious decision it's just so hard right
it is hard yeah so much evil that you you kind of get confused like what are we really doing here
you know yeah i know it's just like a testing ground and then i'm like wait is it really just
hell because even stuff with the kirk, and I don't know how you
guys feel about him, but his wife's insane. Yeah, I mean, I think you touched on something there,
though. You said, is this a testing ground? I almost do view it as a test, like an individual
test for each person. It almost is a test. And the way that you choose to live your life like some people
are some people are choosing um a path that is unfulfilling to whatever it is that their soul
and this is just my perception to whatever it is their soul's purpose is or whatever their purpose
is for being here some people are not going to fulfill that purpose
and others will choose to fulfill that purpose.
I don't know.
That's just my perception.
And I think if we allow ourselves
to become overwhelmed and distracted
by the external things that we can't control
because there are a bunch of people that are here
not fulfilling their life's purpose
in a positive way if we choose to become distracted by that and overwhelmed by that
then we become another another person that will not exactly exactly so that's how darkness wins
is by overcoming people like distracting people and overwhelming
people to the point that they become a part of the darkness because that's all that they
can fixate on.
I know personally for me, I can just be outside and look at the sun or the moon in the stars
and it makes me happy.
But like other people that I've ever been around they don't see that depth
like they're just miserable all the time no it it'll take a beautiful flower and I'm like
you know see how pretty that is you know that comes from God and just warms your heart and
your soul you know just little things like that you know but then there's people
that won't even think that way they're just miserable to be miserable I guess maybe that's
just what they oh yeah and misery misery loves company such an old saying but it's so true that's
true yeah right like people don't like to be miserable on their own if they're going to be
miserable they want other people to be miserable with them because misery does not connect with anything. It's lonesome. It's it's isolated. Right. But if you are miserable, then you're going to reach out to other people in a way that, you know, you're going to want people to be with you in your misery because misery is lonesome.
be with you in your misery because misery is lonesome. Is it? See, that might be the thing
because my ex-husband was always like that miserable kind of person. And I'm like, why are
you so mad about everything going on in the world? Like, you just look at the sky, you know,
it's gorgeous. Make yourself happy with whatever you can find. And it just never worked out that way. Like, you know,
we've been divorced for, I don't know, four to five years now. And I just, I can make, I know
that like my grandbabies, just seeing them make me happy. My children, it's just seeing their
face or a picture of them, or like I was saying earlier like
outside whenever you see the things that God has created for all of us to enjoy um
it's just so much bad that's been going on lately that I get confused I'm like is this
actually really hell and we're just it's a whole test of like either
people can make it or not make it either you're gonna find something to help you cope with life
and the things that go wrong and looking for those beautiful moments to make that makes you happy or
you're just never gonna see any of the good there is miserable i think that
there's there's darkness there's lightness both have to exist at the same i i believe that all
possibilities constantly exist at the exact same time and the dark and the light so the darkness
wants to pull more into it it wants to feed off of this is my perception i think that the darkness wants
to feed off of um the the people that negative yeah like they it's feeding right whereas the
lightness is it's a giving it's it's pouring energy into um the collective rather than trying to suck energy
out of the collective the lightness tries to pour energy into it because we know you know people that
are that are trying to do that we know that what you give is what you get if you pour into the
collective in a positive way then that will come back to you
so that's what how i try to see it i try to remind myself because i definitely do fall into
the trap of just thinking like oh my god this world is so terrible yeah i fall into that often
but i like energy vampires it is that's what i that's exactly my point what i try
to remind myself is by i can feel that feeling but i cannot let that feeling sit for too long
because then the the the darkness has won and it's sucked me in tries to win it'll never win
on me but it does try right thank you guys for listening and i appreciate you all i'm gonna go
back on mute now thank you oh thank you lulu i just want to say when you were talking about
the beautiful things um that god has created i looked at my phone and my battery was at 44
and it was 944 so So those are total angel numbers.
So maybe take that synchronicity for what it's worth.
Oh, yeah. They're always fine.
Thank you, Francis.
You're welcome.
I love that.
God bless you all.
All right.
And Olive, could you come up here?
Can we ask about your wonderful night?
Yeah.
I saw Olive went on a date and she was saying.
I don't know if anyone was supposed to know.
Yeah, she was saying in her post that she just couldn't wait to get home.
Poor girl.
I know that feeling.
You're just sitting there like, please, God, fucking give me an out, please.
Right, bless it.
I love you on a good date. If not, either way, give me an out, please. Right, bless it. I don't have a good date.
If not, either way, it's an experience.
She said it was not a good date.
Her thumbs down.
Oh, man, that's brutal.
I hope that you're home and relaxed and decompressing from that because that's not fun.
Bad dates suck.
Absolutely terrible.
Did anybody
have a blind date on here?
Anybody ever go on a blind date?
No. Yes.
And it sucked. Does it count?
Does it count when someone catfishes you?
I think that counts as a blind date.
Oh, you got catfished? And what'd you do?
Did you go out or did you stay home?
No. What'd you do?
We just remained friends.
You got catfish?
How bad was the catfish?
It was not good.
It was not good.
I just, I don't know.
False advertisement.
It's not cool.
We remain friends.
We remain friends.
I also, fun fact, I saved someone's life on a date once.
I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding.
I'm not kidding.
So my date started choking, like actually choking on his food.
And I could see him like, his face started to go purple.
And I was just like, you can't breathe right now.
Like he started cough, trying to to cough but he couldn't cough and i just like got up and i my i don't know i just gave him the heimlich maneuver
and then saved his life it was wild he's a mess that he's used in dark psychology that way he
fucking lied no he literally life and he was he was dude. He was literally choking. Like, and I saw him like hitting his chest, like trying to like cough it up or whatever.
And I just, I was so calm, which was crazy because I, I didn't know how I'd react in that scenario.
I've taken like CPR and first aid courses and, you know, they tell you what to do, but you never know how you're going to actually react in the moment when that kind of thing's happening.
And I was just so calm.
I just looked at him and I was like, are you choking?
And he was like, like, you know, he couldn't even respond.
And then I just calmly got up and I lifted him out of his chair and I wrapped my arms around his like gut abdomen area and I gave him the Heimlich maneuver and then he choked
his food he coughed his food up and and I fucking saved that guy's life and it's funny because the
the whole restaurant clapped like it was so embarrassing um and and then we just like we
I mean there was no chemistry right like we just remained friends another one that we just remained friends but it was funny because we it was this ongoing joke of like we have to be friends now because
like he he said he's like i have to be friends with you because you saved my fucking life
so like we have no choice but to be friends so yeah it was funny i mean not funny in the moment but pretty crazy that sucks you go out
on a date with mella and then you choke on your food and you you that's like the fumble of the
year it was that's the fumble of a lifetime i know i never let him live it down i was just like dude
you think i'm gonna date someone that can't even fucking chew like come on. What are you talking about? No. It was funny. I was just joked around
with them. I almost died in a club choking on a cherry bomb. Really? So I didn't know one of my
friends got me a cherry bomb in my drink when I was, this is years ago. And I didn't realize that
it was a cherry bomb because they would always put cherries in. And I used to sort of like chop them in half with my teeth and then suck on the juices.
But when I sucked on the juices Everclear hit the back of my throat and I gasped because it was intense.
Right. And my friend didn't tell me that's what it was.
Right. So I had no idea. And the cherry,
half of the cherry lodged there. And luckily, I had gasped because it actually put air in my
lungs. And I'm like grabbing my best friend, turning him around. We were in a fight at that
moment. Like I was mad at him. And he was mad at me. And I was doing the like neck symbol,
you know, like I'm choking, seriously. And he's like, what? And I'm like, doing the like neck symbol you know like I'm choking seriously and he's like what
and I'm like doing the neck symbol and so he did the Heimlich and he did it wrong and then he
turned around because we were mad at each other and so I'm looking at like pool tables I'm like
okay if I if I have the energy to take that fan off of the stand I can maybe use the stand and
finally my team was like, turn him around again
because I was like, I'm not asking that guy. I'm not asking my best friend again. He's going to
let me die of this terry bomb. And so I turned him around again, and his face dropped all color,
and he literally started doing the Heimlich until it shot out. And my throat was sore for hours
after that because there was Everclear just sitting there right it was awful um
so yeah choking is no fun and i'm glad i'm alive and my best friend was a dick but yeah it's freaky
it's freaky to see somebody's like the panic on somebody's face when they can't breathe
is actually like terrifying and they say that um so there was a girl i can't remember her name but she has like
a disorder where she doesn't have pain receptors and she doesn't feel pain so it's kind of a
dangerous disorder to have because you can end up in really dangerous situations if you don't feel
pain right but they studied this woman and um she she had no like emotional fear response because she couldn't feel pain.
But as soon as they tried to, they did the experiment of what would happen in her brain if they took her ability to breathe away momentarily.
And that was the only thing that caused her pain receptors to fire.
So, yeah, the panic on somebody's face when they can't breathe is a terrifying look.
Oh my God. Feeling that feeling of not being able to breathe. I was like, okay, how many seconds do
I have left? I was literally thinking about this. Like, what do I, what's around me that I can use
to do the Heimlich on myself? Because I know how to do the Heimlich as well, right? And I was trying, but it was not working.
But yeah, I mean, I'm just glad I'm alive.
And I really don't like cherry bombs.
I mean, I don't drink anymore.
Oh, my God.
I'm glad too.
If you're putting a cherry bomb in your friend's drink, guys, tell them.
Make sure you tell them.
They may do weird stuff like I do.
Chew the cherry in half and then suck the juices.
I mean, whatever, right?
Sounds delicious, to be honest mella you said somebody doesn't feel pain like ever he'll ever see you don't mess with uh
zohan he doesn't feel any pain at the adam sandler movie oh yeah yeah yeah that's a funny movie
i like that movie that's an old one right yeah like 2008 or something oh my god isn't it it's crazy it's crazy that like that's old now
um i have some students that are born in like the mid like like 2014 2000 and whatever and like
it's just so crazy to me i'm like there's people that are living like there's people in college
that are born in the 2000s. That's fucked.
That's crazy.
Time is passing.
I just, I thought, I don't know.
I feel like I'm still youthful.
I feel young.
So the fact that I'm the adult now is crazy.
It's nuts.
Yeah, I'm pretty old too, but I feel young. I feel young too young too pure you had raised your hand a million years ago do you want to talk oh um i just want i wanted to take a stab at the question that you
guys answered so eloquently um when she was asking about which ones yeah lola's um or lolos um yeah just like another
take because there's like so many takes but i find them also fascinating so like i just wanted
to take a stab at it too like one one way to talk about the discussion of like is it heaven or hell
and like um what we're experiencing down here is that if you look at our consciousness
like if you were to make a diary of everything you worried about for like a year and then go
back and track it like one year later and be like okay I worried about this how did it turn out
and every time it turned out well you would like highlight it in green and if it turned
out poorly you would highlight it in red if you had like you know like just just the idea of
tracking that with your consciousness to see like how many of your quote-unquote like prayers are
getting answered because the normal state of human consciousness is to bounce around
from problem to problem to problem but then not have like a long-term consciousness tracking
of how the problems went so it sort of uses our like thought sequence to keep us feeling like
things are awful while by the time we actually receive those things that
we're worried about they're actually fine so that's another angle that I just wanted to share
I adore that angle oh my gosh I'm so happy I was sitting here just like a hundred a hundred a hundred
could not hit the emoji button fast enough because it's so true. Like we fixate. It's just
kind of, I feel like it's just so common to fixate and always like, like you said, like pivot from
problem to problem. And we experience negative emotions, um, more intensely than we feel positive
emotions. It's why I have a hard time writing a positive song.
A happy song is a hard song to write.
It's so easy to write a sad song, a heartbreak song.
Oh my God, I lost my lover, blah, blah, blah.
Like all of the sad stuff is so easy to write about
because we ruminate on negative emotions.
Whereas I don't think it's common.
And I say that I don't think it's common and I say that I don't think it's common because I don't know if we can actually like measure this but like I don't know how often
people ruminate and sit and like overthink positive things you know what I mean? So like, if that's the case, yeah, it's, I'm just kind of like extending your point. Cause I agree with you so much. I just gave you a follow. Thanks for being here.
I would use it.
I'm like, seriously?
Me too.
I would use it just to see at the end of the year, like how much green I have.
Maybe have one of those circles, right?
Not a pie chart circle, but something that shows you like your percentage of, you know.
And maybe it's not red and green.
Maybe we pick another color for the uncomfortable, uh, obsessive loops.
I'm going to start this right now.
I'm in my spreadsheet era.
I have a spreadsheet for everything.
It's absolutely lovely.
I feel it's not,
it's not a feeling of like being in control.
I just feel like I'm like analyzing things deeper and I love that.
So I'm, I'm just going to add deeper and I love that. So I'm just going
to add it to the spreadsheet list. Maybe I'll make the spreadsheet and then I'll post the
spreadsheet in my community on school and then everybody can download it and we can start
tracking and we can all just keep track of like, yeah, let's, I'm going to do it. I'm working on
it right now. Do it. But I feel like Pure need an app for that.
We're going to co-sign, yeah, Pure,
if you build an app,
I will promote that app in my school community for sure.
Yeah, yeah, Pure.
I feel like, I feel the same way.
I think this universe is always pushing us
towards our best life.
And it doesn't seem like that
because we get our ass kicked over here.
Maybe we lose a job over there. But I do feel like at a certain point, when you look back,
you say, oh shit, all that happened for a reason. It takes a little while to figure out those
reasons and they suck while you're experiencing them. But later on, believe me, I say that all
the time. It's actually a secret in my book.
I say the universe conspires in our favor constantly.
And our nightmares are so brilliantly disguised as nightmares.
But they're really blessings.
Unbelievable.
Crypto.
Hey, I got to jump in here on this one.
Pure, it was awesome what you said.
What I want to add to it is, you know, we have tons of different things that we deal with on a daily basis.
And a lot of them are distractions from what we really should be focusing on or what we want to focus on our goals and our future and whatnot.
We have all these distractions.
And when we go to sleep at night, our brain works on a quantum level.
It does things that you cannot even imagine while you're sleeping.
It analyzes everything in your life,
throughout everything you've seen and done throughout your day and throughout
your life and just constantly analyzing and analyzing and analyzing.
And what I,
what I suggest everyone do is to before you go to bed at night to reset
yourself,
think deeply about where you do want to go and what you do want to do as you drift off to sleep.
And your brain will focus more on those things in that quantum world in your mind as it corrects itself and figures things out and solves problems while you sleep.
That's what I suggest.
I actually do that every night.
I focus on the feelings that I want the next day.
I focus on the outcomes, but not micromanaging.
And I call in what I want the next day. And I, you know,
I'm all about the woo, right? So I request that my high self supports me in that while I'm in
dream time to wake up the next day. That's one of the things that I've done that so much in my life,
but that's one of the back to basic things that I do to reprogram myself, so to speak, because I am still working through things,
right, that have happened in the last two years. And I do, I was waking up with a sense of dread
every day for like six months last year, that feeling. And I was like, no, I'm not doing that
anymore. And as soon as I started doing that and also focusing on what I'm grateful for and how I feel supported every night, that helps.
And then in the morning, I take, you know, however many minutes to go into this is going to be an amazing day and support myself in that way.
And then the things that I'm grateful for as well.
And I can tell you it helps to soothe your nervous system.
Plus, you know, affirmations, like people talk about them all the time,
and most people don't.
I feel like most people don't even know what they're doing with them
because most people don't explain it.
But one thing an affirmation does is it brings up,
it'll bring up your fear at some point.
It'll bring up your resistance to it, the block, right,
the illusion of block
that has been created. And when you start to do that, like, then you do the inner work when that
comes up, right? It's not like, oh, this isn't working. Now I still, you know, I feel worse than
I did before. It's, oh, this is reminding me of what I'm holding within my consciousness, within
me, that is conflicting with what I want.
And we go into that and deep dive into that.
Like, how can I love that?
How can I move through it?
How can I heal, forgive, whatever it is in that moment?
And that practice that you're talking about of the night and the morning will also bring that up too.
But once you're really adept at the practice,
you can see that and then drop in with it right then. And then it dissipates because we're
designed to have things move through us. And when we really are decided and dedicated to thriving
in whatever way it is that we've decided, those things are going to come up.
Any confliction within us is going to come up. Any resistance, things that we're attached to
that are no longer beneficial for us will come up to the light of our awareness. And that's where we
decide what we're going to do with it, allow ourselves to feel the feelings instead of
resisting them. Uncomfortable feelings are a key, right? If we're
having an uncomfortable feeling, it's a key. Sometimes it's because we're somewhere we shouldn't
be, right? Or we're around someone that is not beneficial for us. But if it's an inner thing,
it's a key to unlocking within ourselves the thing that we have the infinite potential to create.
within ourselves the thing that we have the infinite potential to create. And these are the
little moments that actually give us that leap forward when we face them, when we allow them
without resisting, without compartmentalizing, without doing all of that. And then we allow it
to move through us, the feeling, when we slow the thoughts, realize that we're looping,
us, the feeling, when we slow the thoughts, realize that we're looping, and allow ourselves
to be okay with where we are, while knowing that we're gifting ourselves the ability to
change it, that's where I believe true liberation happens, and then we can thrive.
I love it.
This is what it's all about.
Thriving. Blooming, if you will.
I can see some people requesting.
I'm going to let you into the bloom room on school right now.
So, welcome.
You going to play for us?
Yeah, I'll play a song. Let's see.
Maybe I'll play on the piano. Can you guys hear this?
Sounds so good.
All right. It's not always peaches, rainbows, and butterflies
leeches, rainbows, and butterflies.
Sometimes it's leeches, black holes, and sleepless nights.
Not every rain cloud has a silver light. dark times they linger much longer than we'd like
dark times they linger much longer than we'd like
but I am supposed to be the optimist Save my tears, level my head a bit
Supposed to be the optimist
Save my tears, stiffen my upper lip
But I feel so heavy
I feel so weak
I'm supposed to be I'm supposed to be the optimist I think there's power in letting our demons in
Treat them as good friends in need
Let them sit a bit Maybe the monster's just our inner kid
These dark times have lingered much longer than we'd like
Longer than we'd like
Dark times, they linger
Much longer than we'd like
But I'm supposed to be the optimist
Save my tears, level my head a bit
Supposed to be the optimist
Save my tears, stiffen my upper lip but i feel so heavy
i feel so weak i'm supposed to be i am supposed to be the optimist
I am supposed to be the optimist
Save my tears, level my head a bit
Supposed to be the optimist
Save my tears, stiffen my upper lip
I feel so heavy, I feel so heavy I feel so weak I'm supposed to be
I'm supposed to be the optimist
I'm supposed to be the optimist.
I'm supposed to be.
Beautiful, beautiful, Mel. I love it.
Thank you so much, Mel.
Oh, my gosh. I could feel that one.
That was amazing. Straight from the soul, for sure.
Yeah, thank you.
Thanks, everybody.
That one is called The Optimist, and it's coming out soon.
It's so much fun to play it on piano.
I wrote it on guitar,
um, but I'm, like, learning, I'm learning my own song, so I definitely did mess up a few chords in there, but I'm getting it. It's coming together. It's, like, changing the way that we're recording
the song and everything. It's so cool. Um, I had to, like, sit with this song for some time because it's like my I don't know,
this is one of my favorite songs I've ever written. It's very important to me that I
convey it in the way that the song is calling for in the official recording. So I yeah, we went to
the studio last week and it was like, we listened to the initial recording and
I'm sitting there just shaking my head and the engineer looks at me and he goes, what?
And I'm like, please open a new project. And he goes, are you sure? And I'm like, yes,
open up a whole new project. We're scrapping this version it's too fast and he's like are you sure because
part of the engineer's job is to like rein me in when I'm getting too in my head but I knew for a
fact like I I spent so much time just sitting and listening to this song over the months that it's
been recorded and every single time I had the exact same thought
this is too fast the tempo is too fast I remember being in the recording studio and like looking at
the drummer and being like I don't know this is feeling fast but um self-advocacy as a musician
working with other musicians is difficult sometimes so I definitely should have spoke up and
just like put my foot down and been like nope we gotta do this differently but I learned a hard
lesson and uh that hard lesson is if you don't do that during the session you're gonna have to go
back and re-record some stuff later so that's where we're at with this song but it's it's
actually a blessing in disguise because i i you know like
it happened at the perfect timing at the time when i wrote the song i wrote it on guitar
and i was not really playing piano that much and then i started teaching uh piano guitar voice
lessons and by teaching piano it forced me to sit at the piano more and to play more.
So I started playing my own songs and figuring them out on piano and stuff, which I hadn't done before.
So it's kind of like perfect timing that this happened.
If I didn't start teaching and I didn't have to sit at the piano, then I wouldn't have sat and learned this song on the piano.
And then the recording would not be evolving in the way that it is.
And I think it's evolving in a direction that it was meant to.
So all in good time.
All in good time.
I can't wait till you have the entire record out.
You're performing like that.
Imagine that.
I know.
It's going to be a ridiculous year.
It's coming. It's going to be a ridiculous year. It's coming.
It's coming.
I'm so excited.
I'm like pouring so much into it.
And it's a terrifying but exciting feeling.
It's absolutely horrifying.
You know, I'm kind of going through those phases that I'm saying,
like I'm looking at the best performances online.
You can look them at YouTube.
You know, you've seen certain people with these like amazing performances.
Imagine playing in front of like 50,000 screaming people singing your song back to you.
Imagine that feeling.
I know.
Oh my gosh.
I can only imagine.
I've been in a room.
I've been on stage before where people have known the lyrics and
they've sung my songs back to me but it's just like a handful of people that know the lyrics
and sing back and that that is even like an amazing feeling there's this guy in my town
and he comes to and any local show that i play he will be there and he's such a good supporter
and like he knows all the words to the songs.
And he sits front row.
And he sings them at the top of his lungs.
And it's just, like, the best feeling ever.
I gotta love it.
I, like, I remember one time I, he surprised me.
Because he said he wasn't coming.
And then he showed up.
And it just was, like, happenstance that he showed up the
moment I was playing his favorite song that I've written and he came in just like belting it at the
top of his lungs and it was just so magical it was awesome so I've had little tastes I've had
little tastes of that feeling and I can only imagine what it would be like to have like a
massive crowd singing your song back at you oh my god that's something that like I don't care to be like famous I don't care to be like
billboards artists like I don't care I it wouldn't bother me I would die a happy person if
if I just you know get these projects out and like some people listen to it like that's fine but like the feeling of of
sharing that energy because that's what it is to me it's not about the like the accolades of like
oh my god all these people know the lyrics to my song that doesn't i don't care about that
just like the energy exchange of all of us belting the optimist at the top of our lungs.
Oh, that would be just magical.
That'd be sick.
It's going to happen.
You know what's interesting?
Here's the thing.
Most people think they got to change the world
by teaching people how to change the world.
But we have these things called mirror neurons.
So these mirror neurons, they link up with other people.
So if you're at a concert, you have like an, you're taking an EEG scan on your head and
you're, you're something that if you're, we're doing like a brain scan test between
the people in the crowd and let's say Melo B playing the same areas in the brain light
up for Melo B as to the people in the crowd, meaning that they get the same exact feeling as if
they're Melo B. And that's why like with sports, it's the same thing. So you may see Michael Jordan
play and you may see him win and he gives you the same feeling that he feels because we have these
mirror neurons. In other words, you don't change the world. I don't think, you know, there's ways
to change the world, but you don't do it by like teaching. Oh, this is what you do. You got to do this. You got to do this. You got to do that. No,
you actually follow your passion and then you create those mirror neurons. So people could
look at you, get that feeling, feel inspired. A, they could replicate you and maybe do that.
B, you might inspire them to, I don't know, create something different. Whether it's a book,
you may hear Melody's song, be inspired and write a book. And C, they show you what's possible. Like when somebody goes and
does something great, they show you like what's possible for a human to do. So there's a lot,
that's how it's done. Not by talking, not by teaching, but by actually doing physical action
and doing something great and doing something big like Mel B. Appreciate that. Maxim, what's up, man? AJ, I love what you're saying. It's almost like
as if you can't change the world, but you can take care of your neighbor. And like, we're,
we're assigned to do a certain task and it's not to change the world, but take care of your
neighbor. Now, if we all did that tomorrow, what kind of world would we live in? Right.
And so I just love that message aj
just really resonates with me because i feel like so many people are stressed out they're so down
on their they feel like they're down on their luck they feel like they're down in the dumps because
of all this horrible worldwide news that we're hammered with day in and day out it's like hang
on you're not called to save the world you're not called to change the world
but like just take care of those around you uh you know process those uh chemicals that whatever
you were talking about aj i'm sorry i don't know the names um but that's exactly it you know the
people that are actually around you though those are the only people you can really affect you're
not gonna be able to change the world be who you are in your own community and, uh, take care of those around you. And
then you're doing what you need to do and you're doing everything you can do. So
great message, AJ. I love that. Yeah, I agree. I agree, Maxim. Yeah. And you know,
you have good people on this app. You can learn a lot from certain people on here.
And I really think this app is about learning from the people on here, taking that learning
and then helping people around you.
I've been saying that a lot.
It really isn't an app to really fight with people on here, battle with people on here.
It's used or wrong.
And I give people this example.
Like 500 years ago, if you wanted to come together with a group of people and have like
a philosophical discussion, you would have to physically jump on a horse, gallop two fucking weeks to France, go into
the palace of the king, or walk thousands of miles to have a philosophical discussion.
It was very difficult.
Now you could actually take your phone, put it on, and you could have a little philosophical debate. Yeah, I was watching a podcast. You made me, it reminded me of this
podcast I was watching. And I think it was Gary Vee was talking with someone about just like the
prediction for the future of technology and how AI how like ai is becoming um prevalent in the way that we
interact with technology and stuff and the host of the of the podcast was saying her prediction
was that we were going to move further into a um i guess a world where we we want to connect in
person more because once everything is so like
botted once there's bots everywhere and people can't differentiate the
interactions anymore because they don't know if they're talking to a bot or if
they're talking to a real person anymore it's gonna push us in this direction of
of connecting in the real world and maybe it's it's kind of resetting things a
little bit because we've been so digitized. And Gary Vee, he ended up kind of agreeing with her in a sense, but he argued that we already are on that path and we've been on that path.
Because even though it seems like we've become disconnected because of our interactions online and everybody being so like
prominently online all the time um he he was like well how many people think about it like how many
dates do you think are planned tomorrow because of tinder and being online like there was probably
um there's probably so many people that have made plans because of the
apps that we engage in now, rather than, you know, just being online all the time.
Like it's actually forcing us to connect a little bit more in person because that's where
we make our plans and stuff.
And like conferences and like people getting together from different communities and stuff.
And that's something that I never really thought about.
I thought that just my perception was that social media has kind of distanced us so much
that we don't interact in person anymore.
But it was a good point.
And I think it's actually fair to think that as things become, like AI becomes more prevalent, what's going to happen to
social media platforms, right? Like it's either it becomes completely overrun by bots that nobody
wants to be on the platforms anymore because they don't want to interact with bots. And it might
become very confusing, like people posing as human or not like bots posing as humans
or whatever it might become become so confusing that it pushes people away from social media
and that's kind of why i've leaned into like i think a platform like school is like a perfect
alternative to build your community because it's it kind of protects you from that like there's no
there's no opportunity.
You kind of have to moderate it a little bit
because I guess bots could ask to be a part of your community.
But I think more like exclusive communities are going to blow up
because bots are going to take over
and nobody's going to want to interact with them anymore.
And what do you think it's like interacting with bots here? Like what would you say a bot would be? Do you see them a lot on here?
Oh yeah. Oh my God. Yeah. Dude, the comments are so annoying. Do you know how many comments I get
a day that are like, and they're targeting, they're targeting. So it used to be like, Hey,
um, I'd love to connect with you you should follow me back right like I
get those but now they actually like I guess they've set it up so that way they they assess
what the post is about so let's say I post a picture of me in the studio and I'm recording
a song and the caption is I'm it's a studio day or whatever happy to be back in the
studio they'll actually like the bots will respond to that post as if they're a human
and be like they'll say something like um it's so worth it to to be in the studio creating magic
blah blah like they'll like write something really I don know. You can just tell that it's a bot and then they always follow it up with, I'd appreciate a follow back. Right.
So it's like that, that's a kind of a giveaway. Um, those comments are everywhere. I think people,
people actually think that they're interacting with humans but it's there's so many bots on this
platform so it's good could you imagine what's happening to like the old guys with like the ai
like porn and stuff like that oh yeah how much money are they dishing out you think oh they have
no clue right yeah and there's gonna be like robot girlfriends. I heard that Elon is moving away from like vehicles and really trying to focus on robots.
And the robot girlfriend is going to be a thing.
That's for sure.
There's no way they're keeping all the, they got to get rid of half this human population.
I think it's all fun and games right now, but they do got to get rid of all this.
And you see that with the workforce. I've never seen this many jobs lost in my life.
Why do you think that is? Why do you think that is? Because we even saw there's a file,
there's a file in the Epstein files and it says they're talking about like trying to,
It says they're talking about like trying to, I guess, like obliterate the poor.
Like they talked about like how can we strategize just kind of getting rid of the poor people of the world.
And it's like, it's crazy.
It's crazy to think about it when there's, I don't know, just like high up elite people that are planning our demise.
Just like the little people's demise.
I don't know.
It's kind of fucked up.
What do you think about that?
Why they want to get rid of everybody?
Yeah, it's completely fucked up.
I just think they're trying to get rid of the rich a little bit more than the actual poor.
The poor is used to being poor.
I don't know if they're that much of a problem, but you know who is a problem?
White people who went to college and have no job and AI is going to take their job. What do you do with these people? These people become a problem. So I think you have to get rid of the Americans.
I think you have to get rid of the workers, the people who went to college. So it's a tough time
that way. I don't want to be that much of a doomer, but I think that's a little bit of their plan because, again, you're 40 years old. But again, in the future, you're not going to be at a dumb cubicle. Perhaps, perhaps you could just follow your passion, you know, and do certain things you want to do. So there is that. Now, look, I say this all the time. If you think that our leaders are doing something wrong in ruling us,
it seems like that. And I believe that too. However, it's not. We would all, if let's say
we were in Armageddon, we had a space yesterday, me, Israel, everyone. And we were talking about,
you know, Armageddon. Let's say it was the end of the world. It was like Armageddon.
We would all have to quickly figure out that we would have to become more evil than we
could ever imagine just to survive.
However, our leaders, they're pushing control mechanisms on us.
That's actually what you do when you rule.
You push control.
And the reason why you push control is one reason in particular, it does lead to the
future survival of humanity.
Oh, I hate seeing this.
It's like I'm pushing the reptilian agenda.
However, our workers, the people who rule things, let's say there's going to be a big
cataclysm that they know about and we don't.
You would need to enslave the whole human population and you would need to take all
the resources to go off planet.
So perhaps they're preparing for that just in case. That's what you would do. If you had a
one world government, you would eventually put that plan into motion. I know that's all fucked
up. People get back. What's he talking about? Does that make sense? I mean, yeah, it just really,
there's so many factors to consider. Like I personally, my belief is that most of the people that we see as the rulers of the world or the people in power, I think that they are puppets.
controlled to some degree. Do I think that that's like a scapegoat for them? No. I think that
there's like money is not inherently evil but it amplifies evil. So like if you're an evil person
and you have money you're just going to use your money to do evil. If you're a evil person and you have money, you're just going to use your money to do evil.
If you're a good person and you have money, you'll use your money to do good, right?
And sometimes money gets in the way of people's morals and ethics.
And I think that's, it's too bad.
It's too bad.
And like, I don't know. I just think that it, I think that it goes
so deep. I don't think that the people that we see as like the rulers are like the rulers. I
think that they are, um, actors almost. They're the ones that play the role, you know?
Yeah. And look, if you look at the movie Casino, I'll go to Maxim.
And then I want to say what's up to Zen say right after, but I'll say this first.
If you look at the movie Casino, the movie Casino, you saw the guy out front.
You saw the pit boss.
He was out there talking to everybody.
He was out front.
He was on TV.
He was doing everything.
But behind the scene, the mob bosses ran the game and they were heavily, heavily insulated.
There's no doubt that that's how
this world works now but uh maxim what's going on man man i i just absolutely a vibe with everything
you guys are saying and melo b you're absolutely correct the pink in the brain rulers quote unquote
of this world they're not the rulers of this world but, but the one who is is somebody who's very, very
scary. And this is what I think is happening. Let me put my tinfoil hat on real quick. I'll take
just a minute. I think that these people are being promised eternal life on this planet.
Don't look any further than transhumanism. We already have Neuralink, right? We already have that.
If you've ever seen Black Mirror,
we already know where that's going.
So you've got these people who think
that they will be able to live forever.
And that's a promise that was made in the garden
back when we were first created, right?
So this is my idea.
These people think that they can live forever,
but what's the big problem with that?
The big problem is those who cannot live forever. The gap between the haves and the have-not would become so great at that point that the uprising would be inevitable.
So what do you have to do? At first, you need to either convince people that are the have-nots to join you in this crusade to become, you know, eternal,
quote-unquote, or get rid of them. And I think that's kind of where we're at. And I know that
sounds absolutely batshit crazy, but, you know, I'm just spitballing here. I'm just coming up
with my theories. It's kind of like the Tower of Babel, same idea, right? Like, we can reach heaven
if we work hard enough, if we try hard enough, if we apply our science, if we apply our brains.
But the problem is people are going to be left behind on the last few steps.
And the last thing you want them to do is sprint up to the top and knock you down.
So what do you got to do?
You got to make sure you get rid of them.
Because when you have and they have not, they will uprise.
And we know that throughout human history. So I think that's why they're obsessed with dwindling the human population,
like you alluded to, AJ. They're obsessed with trying to get people to conform to their kinds of
agendas. And I think that they seriously believe that they can live forever on this earth. And
the biggest thing in their way is us, basically.
That's why we will eat the bugs and they'll get everything else, right?
Oh, yeah.
Interesting that you said the Tower of Babel, because I find the Tower of Babel was AI, some kind of data processing center.
People went there and something was able to translate their languages.
Was it individuals who knew all the different languages and had all
different books?
Perhaps,
but it doesn't seem like that because you wouldn't have to destroy that.
How could you destroy that?
If other people knew the languages,
they could just run,
run to different places and then teach these languages.
everyone had separate language.
That's when everyone spoke the same, right?
I thought Tower of Babel, the Tower of Babel was basic.
It was removed because they built a tower higher than God or something.
I think that's what I remember. They tried to reach God with the tower.
I'm sorry to interrupt.
That's what they were trying to do.
And God saw it.
And God saw that, like, this is ridiculous, this isn't why I made humankind, that they would try to reach me based on their own accord. I'm going to destroy this by confusing their languages, and that's what happened.
And scattered them amongst the earth, and this is a parable, guys, right? So, yeah. But your point still stands, AJ, just after the scattering and stuff, right?
Yeah, just exactly.
Exactly.
What was the Tower of Babel?
Was it a technology?
Did it predate the Bible?
What's going on with that?
It seems like they had to destroy it, just like Atlantis.
They had to destroy it.
It seems like we might have these civilizations that come and go, and you have to destroy it. Just like Atlantis, they had to destroy it. It seems like we might have these civilizations that come and go and you have to destroy the technology. Atlantis is, that's a
prime example. Atlantis is said to be destroyed by certain technologies. And basically those
technologies might've been taken and brought to Egypt. And it's very interesting. So basically,
what world do we live in? And Maxim said it. It's just a theory.
But listen, all theories are on the table now.
I think whoever's running us
been running us for a lot longer
than we could even possibly imagine.
A hundred percent, man.
And if I can just conclude with this,
it's almost like if you build too high,
you might reach the sun and get burnt
and then everything comes crumbling down, right?
So it's inevitable, man.
I opt out.
I opt out of that, and I opt out of so much of this.
Like, no, absolutely not.
Okay, so money to me is an energy that we've assigned meaning to, right?
And we've assigned a whole lot of meaning to money here.
It amplifies us.
It amplifies who we are.
It amplifies our shadows, our traumas.
It amplifies all of it, right?
It can inflate the ego.
How many people have you witnessed?
I'm thinking of certain musical artists at this moment,
but how many people have you witnessed
just observing from far, like we do with people that, that, um, achieve great success. And with
that comes lots of money. They get so neurotic, right. About everything. Like I've heard stories
of people, of people talking about how, like they need a new toilet for every time they fly their private jet
or they need, you know, it becomes eccentric to the point that it's not adorable and cute anymore
and it's neurotic. So now think about the powers that were, right? And think about,
think about everything that you hear on here, right? So that's the kind of thing we're dealing with.
We're dealing with amplification, but we're also dealing with all the media sources, including
some of the little private ones, places like we have here, where there's psyops that are running
constantly, right? You can see the manipulations a mile away when you're not all up in the mix of them.
And all of these things amount to unconscious, subconscious programming, right? How many of
those have we bought into? Number one, that there is a have or a have not. That's a huge, huge
sigh up. It's not true. If this is a place of infinite potential, like Mello was talking about
earlier, and I think other people too, then is there really, are we placing ourselves in lack,
scarcity, limitation by opting into these ways of being in the world? And I'm using air quotes,
you guys can't see that. But like, that's where I come with all of this. How are we going
to liberate ourselves? To liberate ourselves, we have to decide that's not true for us anymore,
see what we've adopted and what we've been creating from, that we've adopted from family,
friends, teachers, society, culture, whatever it is, religious dogmas, all of the things, right? And then liberate ourselves by moving all of that out and opting out and decide what
we want instead.
There's so many things in this world that tell us what we cannot have.
Where are we opting into that?
And where can we say, I'm choosing differently?
No way. I'm playing the star wars game i'm gonna think this is just a big star wars game and that we're up against the evil force and we got him joined together with our jedi force and
our jedi our jedi abilities and form a team to go against this enemy who's never lost since the
beginning of known humanity
i'm gonna play that game yo zensei what's up my man what's going down speaking of jedi brother talking about jedi come on up brother meeting of the jedi masters here i love bridge bridge
you know big love to you it's good to see in the room aj you know another Jedi master there a whole group
and Mela the lovely Mela happy Sunday to you Mela I love to hear the tunes in the
space guys join the bloom room I just feel like I want to offer a
consideration or I feel like as a stabilizer, a way shower in these days,
I would offer my own humble opinion on my perspective on life.
And I would say that when you look through the Epstein files
and it's a lot to integrate,
I want you to understand they know, at least in my view, that we're all one.
They operate on a basis of being one with all things through fear rather than being one through all things through love, for example.
It's one way, if you want to get attention, to order as a dictator everybody into a stadium.
You're using the power of force and you're getting the same result as, let's say, Mela with her beautiful voice, her natural gifts and her love, pulling everybody into a stadium with her natural gravity, right?
And so both are achieving a dream.
One is more of a nightmare.
But in the case of Mela, you know,
achieving this dream using the gravitas of love,
love pulls things together into oneness.
Let's say the opposite pulls things together
through devouring, right?
But there's still a oneness there.
And I bring that up because they want to use your power against you.
And I say that statement because it implies you do have power.
And from my perspective, investing in yourself is going into the mirror saying you know I accept who I am right with all
my flaws or all my person perfection depending on your perspective and and it certainly you will
begin to reflect the perfection that you see in the mirror. Certainly, as you take care of yourself
and you look in the mirror, you say, I love yourself.
I love myself 10 times.
Just say it.
I love you.
I love you.
Look yourselves in the eyes.
And there's a value in that
because who can truly love you until you love yourself?
Until you've fallen in love with your holy self.
And I do mean holy in a sense where whole,
one, it's almost like you're a member to the body of God in this universe. And you've always been
that, but your life's purpose seems to remember yourself to the body of God, re-understand or rediscover who you really are.
And so I think that they understand this
and choose to be essentially the opposite.
They invert everything.
They want to cavort with negative forces, dark forces.
And the law of attraction states,
what's like into itself is drawn.
And so they do all sorts of the unnatural
to draw in these negative spirits. Well, when we commune, when Mela sings and we do this natural
thing and raise the frequency and vibration, we commune with the opposite of the forces they do.
And those are far more powerful. It's much more easy to move in oneness and attract
things and manifest things. It's kind of like living your dream. You're almost experiencing
a dream in the mind of God is what we call time space. And I think this is evident in your actual
dreams, right? The cousin of death, so to speak. In space-time, it takes no time to get from space to space.
This dream realm, this zero-point energy field,
anything you think of is instantly attracted.
It's instantly created in your dreams.
And the same thing is with real life.
The universe is like a copying machine,
except when you're in the opposite of space-time, you're in time-space.
It takes time to get to that space of your dream
if you know where you're going and how to get there.
So I say all that to say,
you can be okay through these times.
You could even thrive in these times.
And it does feel good to be alive.
This equilibrium point in this duality
is so that you can choose. You can't feel and understand happiness without understanding
sadness. Imagine a sport where anytime, for example, basketball, anytime the ball left your hands if you scored is there really any value in scoring anymore
and so you've set up a field to experience the contrast so many are playing out the contrast
even if we fixed everything on this planet and everything was perfect somewhere in the universe
there would be some contrast there would be something worse than what was happening on earth,
right? And so I don't think the goal is to allow your external to determine your internal.
You know, what you're seeing in the Epstein files is happening on the best day of your life.
Things have been happening that aren't so good when you were totally ignorant of all this nonsense.
that aren't so good when you were totally ignorant of all this nonsense.
And so in the spirit of being a stabilizer like Mello,
I'll go ahead and I'll give a little bit of music myself here.
And I'll share something to you.
She accepts my wholeness with no need to manipulate, control, or articulate.
Her needs just to stimulate a shadow self.
Wanting to emulate subconscious ego, a projected role.
Ergo, real love moves slow like S cargo.
Excess cargo just floats with my flow.
No boats, UFOs just go camo.
No gloats, humble praise, singer praise.
Doe raise, fasho, lot of dough.
A lot of hoes out the door.
Let them go, now you know.
As we go to a higher reverberation,
raise our frequency to a new oscillation,
we attract a galactic delegation
to hold a conversation about conscious elevation
to God individuation.
It's our soul contemplation, soul reconfiguration.
You can't discharge patience to a nation
sick of waiting for the end of all creation.
Like God's on vacation, and if love's my vocation, then I defeated Satan because I'm past revelation.
But y'all relegating, discussing, debating, issuing litigation while my heart's celebrating.
Love's the spark of all creation. No more hesitating.
It's our soul's foundation
Beyond the star's formation
We transcend the world's frustration
In love's eternal station
Or the cosmos' new vibration
Let's go, Sensei
Nice, beautiful, Zen
Amazing Oh my gosh That was beautiful then.
Amazing.
Oh my gosh.
First a mic drop and then another mic drop.
Love it.
Yeah, you said something profound.
Something along the lines of like,
you have to experience bad in order to appreciate the good,
at least that's how I interpreted it, um, and it's true, like, I feel like you gotta go through a little bit of shit to get to somewhere better, because, I will honor the fact that, you know, I mean,
Lolo came up here just that you can tell there's like a sense of, you know, almost like defeat,
like, but this world is full of things that I almost like can't even live next to. I can't believe that I have to operate in the same world
that such heinous, terrible things are operating alongside me.
And in fact, I feel, personally,
I feel like I'm unwittingly part of the problem because I interact within the system.
I am supporting, technically.
We are all supporting the system that is corrupt, right?
So, yes, there has to be good.
There has to be bad.
There has to be balance.
Everything's going to, you know, the infinite possibilities will always be.
And there will always be negative darkness and terrible things that happen in the world.
But we have to maintain our light is my argument to that.
Like, I feel like if we don't then darkness wins
that's how I feel so I have to maintain I have to pour into what I believe in and what I love doing
and I have to I have no choice I feel I feel almost like even more pressure to do that um and to like
follow whatever it is I'm passionate about because of the terrible things that are happening in the
world because I'm like well if I'm gonna operate inside this terrible system I must at least be
doing what I love to be doing I might as well's, that's gotta be how I operate or else I'm just
a cog in a corrupt machine. So if I can do what I love doing and distance myself from that machine
as far as I can, even though I know it's not 100% possible to do that.
Maybe it will be one day, I don't know. But right now, it's not 100% possible to just completely
disengage. Everything kind of relies on that system. So yeah, just moving accordingly making decisions consciously maybe this is the era of people
starting to um pay some mind to how they're navigating life and and if they're feeding that
negative you know darkness if they're feeding that corrupt system in the way that they move through life,
like maybe we start to wake up to that and adjust our actions accordingly.
Maybe that's where we're on the precipice of.
Maybe.
Hopefully.
I know I am.
I'm kind of doing that in a sense. Like, I'm trying my best, but there's, and it kind of goes back to the topic of the space, investing in yourself.
Because, like, yeah, you have to, unless you want to be a cog in the machine. We have to invest in ourselves. And I think that comes, I think someone mentioned this, I think it was Crypto in My Veins earlier, was saying like, education. There is like endless opportunities to educate yourself these days. Like, there's no, there's no gate anymore.
no gate anymore um i mean like aj always reminds us like we're in the softest point in history like
we have access to things that we never had access to before for a long time people weren't fucking
allowed to read right like it was like not legal like you weren't allowed to philosophize life
if you if you did you could be killed you could be killed. You could be Socrates. You could be
murdered because you're infecting the minds of the youth.
You know what? I think that's why we're seeing all these psychological operations for that reason
only. You could put on your phone and talk to thousands of people. They have to control that.
So it seems like they're controlling that with a steady dose of psychological shit,
like Charlie Kirk, like the Epstein files, which seems to have maybe 50% truth
and a lot of falsehoods thrown in there to manipulate everybody.
It's one thing after the next.
But again, it's like you said, Mella, just think what we could do in the age of information.
You could put your phone on and command an army all around the world.
They can't have that. So they have to divide everybody. Yep.
100%, brother. When they invented the web, they meant it to do just that, right? To capture you
in it. And it's very sticky. We're all very much together on the web, so to speak.
But who's weaving the web?
And then to what end?
So this is a very short window, right?
It's a window, if you want to seize that opportunity,
to learn about history on the planet that, as Mello pointed out,
is very, very difficult to get a hold of throughout many, many lifetimes.
And they're aware of this window, which is why they created weapons of mass distraction,
right? They want you on a candy crush game with such a sophisticated device. You know,
the ancient Anunnaki's called this device the Mies. Many of them fought nuclear wars over this device. They were so addicted, if you will,
to AI, the all-seeing eye, that they essentially would be lost without the Miis. The Miis on their phones, so to speak, they don't have Candy Crush games,
and they don't have random things to look at on the internet, TikToks and dances.
The Miis are specifically tools to conquer a certain civilization, how to do a certain ritual when, I mean, it essentially runs every aspect of their order, the Anu
world order.
And of course, their communication devices as well.
But I said all that to say this, they want us to have the web to then move into an AI transhumanistic agenda, divide and
conquer, whether it be gender war or any excuse to divide us at all and not see exactly what the
Epstein file showed, that it's not us versus each other. It's an opportunity to unite.
And you see prey all the time,
whether it be a crocodile taking down a buffalo,
and there's like a thousand buffalo running or scared.
They don't know what to do.
And it's just one measly little crocodile.
And so they want you in fear for that reason.
So they can shepherd you into
and bottleneck you into a certain timeline or reality
but we've awakened on this timeline and they're moving very clumsily through it and i think we're
going to be just fine i think you need to leave in your imagination some room for it'll work out
better than i can imagine and there's so many things at play here.
But I totally agree with you, Millaby.
Great point.
That was so beautiful.
Yeah, I love that.
Maybe, perhaps, it will work out better than we imagine. Because if all possibilities, like if infinite possibilities constantly exist
like it's improbable that you know a a majority i mean you can't even say a majority because it's
infinite if infinite possibilities exist then it's it's a 50 50 chance of how it works out if it works out in our favor
if it doesn't so we can maintain some hope it's statistically we it's a 50 50 you never know you
might as well position yourself according to uh to um to the hope that we make it out, you know, okay.
Well, you know what's interesting, Mella?
In the Epstein files released, he was into psionics and random number generators
because the probabilities can be influenced by consciousness.
And he and all of these people are very aware of that.
If you look at my profile pin, there's a video where I go over.
You just hit my profile, go to the pinned tweet, click on the comments,
and I made a video that goes over Palantir
and how they're trying to use Looking Glass,
which did show up in the Epstein files, to shift the props,
to give them an opportunity to create a timeline that's
advantageous to them and their agenda. But they've been kind of fuzzled by us, to turn a phrase.
And we become eminently unpredictable because of our levels of psychic ability when we're being
traumatized. And that's also in the file drop. When you get
traumatized, humans have an innate hidden ability of psychic awareness. This is an adaptation for
survival. And we are in a very, very psychic aptitudinal time right now. And our collective
consciousness has never been more powerful. And we're beginning to see through these lies quicker and quicker. We're beginning to
manifest, let's say, a reality more efficaciously every year. And it's not working out too well for
them. Light is the best disinfectant. And right now, they're making a lot of mistakes.
Now they're making a lot of mistakes.
So what I would say is they don't know how to deal with humanity's energy.
If we use a comprehension of what's actually going on,
they can only prey on societies that they can divide against one another
because they know how to deal with that level of energy.
A violent society looking to bang, bang, shoot them up.
That is energy and frequency they can deal with.
Remember, we see 0.00006% of what there is to see in the universe.
That's why space looks so dark.
And we have what's called dark matter making up 85% of the universe.
But if you can see just a foot more, let's say,
maybe even an inch more in the visible light spectrum, you would see that you are helped.
You would see what types of beings, what types of entities, so to speak, what types of fractal
patterns and dimensional awareness attract to you when you do good.
And you will see that feeling that comes over you.
Or, man, they're giving off a bad vibe.
You'll see what kinds of frequencies and contrasts to the beauty
is attracted by the ugliness people do, especially to children.
And so that's the whole point.
Something innocent just came out of the zero-point energy field. ugliness people do, especially to children, right? And so that's the whole point. Something
innocent just came out of the zero point energy field, a new soul that perfectly karmically
cleared. And then they do heinous things to that soul. And that attracts the worst kinds of
entities. And they want a very slowed down physical reverberation of experience. They want to experience immortality
in the physical rather than in the soul realm. So they're trying to be the opposite of God,
so to speak. And so they want to slow down their vibration, stay in the physical,
and not go back to the soul. And so they'll merge with machines, this artificial life,
back to the soul.
And so they'll merge with machines,
this artificial life,
because again, they're playing God,
they're creating life artificially.
And there's a lot of unnatural consequences
that come with that.
There's a certain concentration of consciousness
that is the soul.
All things operate and move
in terms of at the atomic level
from emotion. Em emotion is energy in motion
but machines they they have a very basic level of emotion the platonic solid it doesn't go to
the soul level maybe to the naked eye but there's no concentration of soul consciousness birthing when two become one.
That's the ritual, you ever think of that?
That allows life to trust itself, to individuate.
Two people have to have such a level of comfort and trust
as to make love in a very natural setting,
let's say without language entirely,
in a very natural setting, let's say without language entirely, in a very natural setting.
That is the formula to bring in a new life.
And so I would just say that,
and there's one more thing I want to do here as we ponder.
I'll share a little bit more music because we're in mellow space,
and I do want to show her a lot of love. I'm glad that she's hosting.
Overthinking is irrelevant.
Living inside a moment, not taking pictures to tell of it.
All of the elements of true love, not how they're selling it.
I would still choose you if we were celibate.
Create the best, go manifest.
Get off your chest all of the stress, alien-ness.
A true goddess creates with thought.
It's in the dark
that we can spark a beating heart a truer light for when we depart
fighting love is an immortal though entering the portal of delphi with the oracles don't ask me
for codes for the wi-fi we got more to do i know she's my future so why try checking horoscopes
we raise the vibration is sky, now we're portable.
I'm shifting dimensions, now we're light transportable.
Feelings frequently have frequency that's not audible.
You can't replace this level of grace.
It's not plausible.
sensei chicken flows
Sensei, chicken flows.
i love spoken word and yours is beautiful thank you zen i'm so glad you're here yeah thank you so
much for coming through love your insight and um you always make me think about things in a
different way so i appreciate that it's my favorite thing about spaces and just engaging with people from all over the world in general.
It's like, I don't know, we all live in our own little bubble.
And our little bubble is our version of reality.
And by conversing with other people and learning from other people's perspectives,
I feel like we can kind of just expand our little bubble a little bit more.
So that's part of the reason why I like hosting these spaces.
So, yeah, I appreciate you and your perspective.
And Bridget, AJ, Mr. Witch, we have, ooh, Prez is down there.
Casey, Kim, Weewan, Lolo, thank you so much for coming up and speaking to us earlier.
I know it's nerve-wracking, so I'm honored that it was my space that you decided to
hit that request button on. That's awesome. I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to do that.
Yeah, it's been a really good space. I think I am going to close it out
pretty soon soon so maybe
we go and we we get some closing thoughts from people um maybe let's circle back to the topic
investing in yourself and and I think we've spoken about a lot of the things that remind us of why
that's important um so maybe let's get some closing thoughts and then call it
sound good it's midnight I don't like to run these
too too late I already hosted another
space this week I'm sure you guys are tired of hearing
my voice so
never never
but I'm totally okay with closing
when you're ready
yeah me too girl thank you Millaby
awesome space yeah it's been good
yeah thank you thank you everybodyaby awesome space yeah it's been good um everyone yeah thank you thank
you everybody oh we got a thumbs down we one doesn't want us to close like nah don't we won
in the half we won um but yeah if you've enjoyed the conversation and if you'd like to continue to
um be a part of the bloom room community uh Up top and in the comments, you'll see
a nice little post from me. It says, if you're enjoying the Bloom Room, join the community on
school. It's free to join and get involved. Go in there and yeah, have a look at the posts and
just engage with us over there. The community is going to grow with us, I feel like.
It's going to just kind of, I don't know, much like everything else I do in life, it's going to flow into what it's meant to be.
So we're going to see what happens with it.
But yeah, it's a free to join community.
I think it's important to keep the conversation going.
We always end up in these spaces and we have such good conversations.
And then it feels like a fleeting moment and it passes us by.
And then we return and we pick it back up.
I just feel like it'd be cool to have a place, like a hub for us to continue so that this doesn't feel like a fleeting moment.
So that's my,
my prerogative there.
But yeah,
the,
the link is in my bio.
If you'd like to join,
it is free.
Anywho,
any closing thoughts,
Bridget,
Witch,
Sensei,
it's a free for all.
I'm good to go,
but thank you.
Awesome insight,
awesome ideas, awesome inspiration
And awesome song on the piano, Melby
We love you
I'm with AJ
And oh man
This space has been really beautiful
I've loved
A lot of what has been shared in it
Meleth, thank you for
Coing me with you and AJ
I've had so much fun
I love When You fun. I love
when you play and I love
that we've got to hear that song twice
in piano or I
have at least. It makes me so
happy and yeah
thank you to everyone whose
energy has been
lent to this space
and your voice if you came up to
speak and sharing your truths and your
perspectives. It's been so good. And I look forward to more of these. I love coming to the
Bloom Room, Mella. I always have so much fun. And it's fun hanging out with the two of you guys.
I love it. And everybody else, of course, too.
Yay.
And Zen's here.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I feel like, you know, we've come to the room to heal the room.
We've come to this space to heal the space.
Those of us here have come to this lifetime to meet up with one another.
to meet up with one another.
And boy, we got our work cut out for us here, huh?
And boy, we got our work cut out for us here, huh?
But this is one of those good ones where we will be saying,
oh, we will be bragging about this lifetime
for a very long time
and getting this specie off the ground, right?
Right, Bridget?
So I would say, you know, like Mela said earlier,
be the light onto the darkness, but curse it not, for you know who you really are.
Beautiful.
So deep.
Yeah, that's so.
Yes.
Yes to that. One big fat yes.
And about a million more.
Yeah. Alright, I'm gonna play a song. Then I'm gonna close out the space.
Because Lolo went in the comments and asked for another song. So this one goes out to Lolo.
Wow, look at me being a multi-instrumentalist in the space now.
I love that.
I can just pick up my guitar, move over to the piano.
This is beautiful.
It's fun. We could play a crokinole, you always win
Oh, it's not fair
But it's okay, I love that smile
I always stare
Promise me you'll never leave, oh want you to cry.
So I know that you love me.
I want you to hurt.
So I know that you're here
I want you to fight
When you get angry
So I know
That your heart is still there
I've been hurt, I've been wronged, I've played along to silly games On the surface it seems so perfect Until it's too late They say the things we seem to hide away, hide away
You and me, we are a team, this you ain't a child's play
I know that you say it
But I want to see it
I want you to cry
So I know that you love me
I want you to hurt
So I know that you care
I want you to fight
When you get angry
So I know that your heart is still there
I know that your heart is still there.
Thank you so much.
That was my late night version of my song Silly Games.
It's out on all platforms if you would like to go listen to it.
The links to my everything are in the bio.
Anywhere you listen to music, you'll be able to find my music.
I have some new stuff coming out soon.
If you'd like to support, there's also a link for that in my bio.
There's also a link for that in my bio.
It is never expected.
It is never expected.
Always highly appreciated, though.
You guys make me, you support me in a way that makes it possible for me to keep doing this all the time.
And to just pour my everything into music is a gift that I will never take for granted.
So I appreciate all of you so much.
And until next time on The Bloom Room, have a good night.
